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another uninteresting day in lala land doing nothing and being very dead to the world it seems. been thinkin alot about what i should be doing with my new allotted freedom to do ANYTHING i want. its weird though cause i feel sort of lost without a direction to start out in. i know of some things that i want to do, like get in touch with the people that kind of slipped out of my life in the past few years. but i dont know if thats so healthy, dwelling on the past and all. atleast thats what it seems like. i cant stop thinking about the way that everything used to be and how much i thought it sucked, but in reality things were so good that i didnt even know it and kinda viered away from what i had... and didnt even know it. ive learned alot latley how to not take so much for granted and concentrate more on whats going on today, rather than worry so much about whats going to happen tomarrow, and trying to analyze what happened yeaterday. i hate feeling like i dont know whats goin on in my own life. i think i need a big hug and for someone to tell me that things really are okay and that things ARE going to get better. this night i will spend enjoying everything that this night has to offer.. unfortunatly, i dont think the night is going to be able to offer me the girl that i would love to give this night to. maybe tomarrow night i'll go on a quest for her. <3