tomarrow.. tomarrow.. its only a day away

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i read live journal quite often these days and it seems like everyone's lives kida suck right now. i feel for ya'll cause my life is prety decent at the time. work has been nice to me for the past few months. thats an awsome thing for me, cause usually im always fucked over when it comes to money. christmas was really nice this year. unlike last year, my brother was here so it was almost the whole family there. robert left last week so im missing hanging out with him already. we had a pretty good time while he was here. i havent seen my sister in almost a year. i feel like im missin out on alot of their lives latley. i kinda feel like i took forgranted all of the time that was had for so many years. mt bro wants to move back here after he finishes high school, but as we all know things change. anyhoo... new was kinda crappy this year. i went to this party downtown with kevin and some of the other guys, but we didnt get there till like 11:30 so the whole night was kinda short lived. maybe next year i'll have a significant other to spend new years with, (fat chance). besides all that tho.. as far as being happy i can say that i have been for a few months. im content with the things that are going on in my life now. my plan for the next few months in quite simple. in march im planning on buying a NEW motorcycle and selling mine to kevin. by june/july i hope to be on my way to moving in to an apt. with someone.. i dont know how thats going to work out, but if things keep going well then it shouldnt be a problem at all. im seriously contimplating on gettting back into the dating but im tired of all the bull shit that comes with it. almost everyone i know thinks that theres in nothing more to a relationship than good sex and spending money on eachother (to get that good sex), and if thats not there, then what are they there for.. maybe im just percieving things wrong, but thats the way it seems. im sick of talking to girls and them thinking all i want to do is get in their pants. DAMN THE MEN THAT FUCK IT UP! errrr! my mind is going like a million miles a minute and that alllll probably came out all wrong. who cares, if you dont like it, dont read this anymore. my dad called me the other day and gave me the worst news. someone had stolen all of the videos that i made in europe along with the video camera. whoever that was... a big FUCK YOU COCK SLOBBER! goes out to them. i guess it just means that i'll have to go again. darn. on the better side of things, i get to go to the family reunion this year. yippee! i've never been to one of these things, so who knows how its going to go, or what all these people im related to are going to be like. should be quite interesting. im really hoping that the 100 euro ticket i got in rome isnt going to fuck me over for going to australia this year. i finally started talking to bella again, that made me happy. im going to convince her to move to america and marry me.. ..(or at least i can dream.)

mad love to yall.. i gots to go party out tho cause tomarrow im no longer 18. happy muddaF'in birthday to me!! 8)