Depressed Like The Ground Mexico City Was Built On...
All day, everyday I'm depressed...I still have fun...I don't take meds (not that I'm against them)...But shit...I'm always fuckin' low as shit...I had to sell all my music equipment that I was working on with my album material because my roomate is nowhere to be found since the 2nd of august, this was expensive ass equipment...All I'm left with is my beloved turntables...I'm about to start fucking around and making mixes on those...I have a mix I've been making for months now called "Empty Fillings To Chew On" or something mildly clever like that...I'm about to get back on my grind...Fuck it...
I work at UPS, I'm hitting my 30 day mark, it's dope...I've been losing weight like mad and I've been working out outside my job as well...My abs hurt today (or what will be abs)...
If you can't tell, I've got no real direction in my writing today...All I've got is just stream of consciousness thing going, and that's okay...I don't really have this journal for anyone, but those reading it's fine...Soon I'll be uploading a website of Doctor Rin with it's own domain name and all and I'll probably ditch this shitjournal thing everyone is ejaculating over computer screens for...Sorry for being so coarse...
Yo...My boy just was locked up on a bullshit trespassing charge and later the brought up a bunch of other retarded charges on him...He just got out and is on 12 months probation...My aunt died last week and all I did was cry myself to being sick...Not so much because of her, but for family and the purpose of life itself...I often question it...I just talked to my cousin for the first time in years who is locked up for murder 1...Shitty thing is, my mom has kept his address a secret from me cause he and I she didn't like the idea of communicating...So I went over that heffer's head and contacted some of my relatives...So I'm gonna be writing him...I cried when I picked up the pen...Rent is due...I'm on my hustle, two jobs and whatnot...I've been having nightmares daily...Intense ass storylines and Sin City-type shit is all I ever dream about...It's not from seeing the movie either...I always have these intense ass dreams of hopelessness and dispair...Torture and mayhem, chaos without order...
With all that being said, the best part of my day is when I finish a shift at UPS...It's hard work and I feel I EARN my pay...I love riding out of that parking lot everyday feeling like I've put my body to use...Forreal...Did I mention I have the 3:30AM to 9:00AM shift there? Yup...
That's it...Hopefully all this sadness written will get me some pussy or something...Heh...
I work at UPS, I'm hitting my 30 day mark, it's dope...I've been losing weight like mad and I've been working out outside my job as well...My abs hurt today (or what will be abs)...
If you can't tell, I've got no real direction in my writing today...All I've got is just stream of consciousness thing going, and that's okay...I don't really have this journal for anyone, but those reading it's fine...Soon I'll be uploading a website of Doctor Rin with it's own domain name and all and I'll probably ditch this shitjournal thing everyone is ejaculating over computer screens for...Sorry for being so coarse...
Yo...My boy just was locked up on a bullshit trespassing charge and later the brought up a bunch of other retarded charges on him...He just got out and is on 12 months probation...My aunt died last week and all I did was cry myself to being sick...Not so much because of her, but for family and the purpose of life itself...I often question it...I just talked to my cousin for the first time in years who is locked up for murder 1...Shitty thing is, my mom has kept his address a secret from me cause he and I she didn't like the idea of communicating...So I went over that heffer's head and contacted some of my relatives...So I'm gonna be writing him...I cried when I picked up the pen...Rent is due...I'm on my hustle, two jobs and whatnot...I've been having nightmares daily...Intense ass storylines and Sin City-type shit is all I ever dream about...It's not from seeing the movie either...I always have these intense ass dreams of hopelessness and dispair...Torture and mayhem, chaos without order...
With all that being said, the best part of my day is when I finish a shift at UPS...It's hard work and I feel I EARN my pay...I love riding out of that parking lot everyday feeling like I've put my body to use...Forreal...Did I mention I have the 3:30AM to 9:00AM shift there? Yup...
That's it...Hopefully all this sadness written will get me some pussy or something...Heh...