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Posted January 13, 2010
A girl in the fibromyalgia comm posted yesterday about how down she's feeling because her life, which was active and exciting and wonderful a year ago, has become more or less a shell of what she used to live. She's frustrated and depressed. Who wouldn't be depressed? Who wouldn't cry when seeing pictures of yourself doing all the things you wish you had the strength to do?
It's disturbing to have your entire life turned upside down. And maybe this is why I've contracted this. I've lived through a total life change and have proven that I can survive, that I'm capable of adjusting and handling the punches. This, this whole thing from the pain to the doctors to the allergy to the having to change/cancel plans...it really is nothing compared to what I've already been through. I'm not going to say that I expect myself to jump up and pretend like I'm not upset or expect myself to not feel sad but I'm not going to let myself let this define and destroy me either.
I wrote a response to the girl in the comm and have to admit that I think I was really talking to myself.
I don't think we truly realize what a grieving process we have to endure when we're diagnosed. I mean, think about it. Most of us are healthy functional people living our lives and then BAM everything turned upside down. You've changed practically every single aspect of your life, it's no wonder you feel upset! And you're right, self-pity doesn't help but remember that you need time to figure this out and adjust. It is not an overnight process. Be gentle with yourself. You're not a burden, you are still you, just a little bit modified.
What is that one quote? “Be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars. In the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul.” - Max Ehrmann
A girl in the fibromyalgia comm posted yesterday about how down she's feeling because her life, which was active and exciting and wonderful a year ago, has become more or less a shell of what she used to live. She's frustrated and depressed. Who wouldn't be depressed? Who wouldn't cry when seeing pictures of yourself doing all the things you wish you had the strength to do?
It's disturbing to have your entire life turned upside down. And maybe this is why I've contracted this. I've lived through a total life change and have proven that I can survive, that I'm capable of adjusting and handling the punches. This, this whole thing from the pain to the doctors to the allergy to the having to change/cancel plans...it really is nothing compared to what I've already been through. I'm not going to say that I expect myself to jump up and pretend like I'm not upset or expect myself to not feel sad but I'm not going to let myself let this define and destroy me either.
I wrote a response to the girl in the comm and have to admit that I think I was really talking to myself.
I don't think we truly realize what a grieving process we have to endure when we're diagnosed. I mean, think about it. Most of us are healthy functional people living our lives and then BAM everything turned upside down. You've changed practically every single aspect of your life, it's no wonder you feel upset! And you're right, self-pity doesn't help but remember that you need time to figure this out and adjust. It is not an overnight process. Be gentle with yourself. You're not a burden, you are still you, just a little bit modified.
What is that one quote? “Be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars. In the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul.” - Max Ehrmann