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i hate when you have a secret that few people know about...especially when you get angry about it or you hate your life (literally) becuase of it.
yeah...freaking a
i cannot believe that he would have the audacity to come to me and apologize just to gain favor. actually, yeah its believable...but it makes me want to slowly kill him. you make me sick...and now you're going to try and get me to do things for you..help you? yeah..good one. you apologize to me just so you can get closer to her. then you apologize to someone else just to do the same. screw you and all that you stand for and the way you think. i loved you..we loved you...wholeheartedly for so long and what did we all get in return...a slap in the face..times 2. but dont worry, you're not fooling anyone becuase we do know what's going on. good luck when it all comes crashing down in front of your face. for real...good luck. i want nothing more to do with you but it is hard when your apart of the lives of everyone around me. why you are...i dont have a freaking clue. sucks they dont know about you. probably good for you though, they wouldnt have anything to do with you either. i dont want to see you when you come, and i will avoid doing so at all costs...keep that in mind. but if i do happen to see you...dont be surprised when i dont respond to you the way you think i will.
i cant think about you without making myself get in an extremely dark mood..i cant see her without wanting to cry and/or throw up. you guys arent too high on my list.
you've also made this week absolute hell for me. i've done nothing but think about you two and what you did. i've done nothing but cry for hours on end...trying to figure myself out. then i think that its not myself i should be figuring out..its you two. then on top of
that i come to the realization that you both really arent worth my tears or my emotionally exhausting thought process.
then all the things on top of that..like ryan and me getting deathly sick right before finals, and my brother moving in, and college stuff, and freaking matthews.
i know i dont have it as bad as some people...and i know that it could be way worse. but right now this is about the brink for me in what i can take emotionally. especially since everything hit me within the past 3 days.
yeah...freaking a
i cannot believe that he would have the audacity to come to me and apologize just to gain favor. actually, yeah its believable...but it makes me want to slowly kill him. you make me sick...and now you're going to try and get me to do things for you..help you? yeah..good one. you apologize to me just so you can get closer to her. then you apologize to someone else just to do the same. screw you and all that you stand for and the way you think. i loved you..we loved you...wholeheartedly for so long and what did we all get in return...a slap in the face..times 2. but dont worry, you're not fooling anyone becuase we do know what's going on. good luck when it all comes crashing down in front of your face. for real...good luck. i want nothing more to do with you but it is hard when your apart of the lives of everyone around me. why you are...i dont have a freaking clue. sucks they dont know about you. probably good for you though, they wouldnt have anything to do with you either. i dont want to see you when you come, and i will avoid doing so at all costs...keep that in mind. but if i do happen to see you...dont be surprised when i dont respond to you the way you think i will.
i cant think about you without making myself get in an extremely dark mood..i cant see her without wanting to cry and/or throw up. you guys arent too high on my list.
you've also made this week absolute hell for me. i've done nothing but think about you two and what you did. i've done nothing but cry for hours on end...trying to figure myself out. then i think that its not myself i should be figuring out..its you two. then on top of
that i come to the realization that you both really arent worth my tears or my emotionally exhausting thought process.
then all the things on top of that..like ryan and me getting deathly sick right before finals, and my brother moving in, and college stuff, and freaking matthews.
i know i dont have it as bad as some people...and i know that it could be way worse. but right now this is about the brink for me in what i can take emotionally. especially since everything hit me within the past 3 days.