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i feel so tired and i haven o confidence at all, its confusing because during most of the day nowadays i have a lot more confidence than i did. However, during other parts of the day, it all goes away and i feel so outside myself. I have to be confident and strong though so i can get through this new style of stuff but everything seems so much less fun and so fucking boring. I am realizing that i dont even know what i feel, but only during parts of the day. all the rest of time time i am confident and have a swagger and am sure footed others i just want to go to sleep and wake up as someone else i am starting to hate my own weaknesses and i want to destroy them