Closin the door...to 2004
It all comes down to this finale. Every memory this year...I've grown from each. There is no doubt in my mind that this year was the most crucial and that this yr was most life changing. Starting from March when I broke up with Andy. He never treated me bad, even when I was mean to him...and we all know I need a challenge, in fact I love challenges...I kinda live for them. It seemed soo easy w/Andy...like he would do anything for me but he had no reason..and after awhile I started to ask myself why we were together. Furthermore, as he got more attatched I had never felt more distant..not just with us..but with myself. I didnt know who I was anymore and why I was where I was. So I let him go...in a slow process and went to find myself.
When LC closed and I enrolled in Clearview..I made sooo many new friendships that changed me soo much. Meeting Kelly made me a stronger person..and helped me have more trust in my friends than I have in the past. After I dated Kenny...which I don't regret b/c he helped me w/reality and made me stronger too...the first guy I actually cared about who never made me cry or feel pain from his crudeness. See Kelly told me not to trust him...but I did...and I didn't trust her..that's when I realized that guys brainwash girls...it's easy to do, verrry easy. B/C every girl wants to be loved, that is what we strive for. Soo I was the typical stereotype an dlet him do so to me. BUt i learned from him...to just let it happen w/a guy and not go searching. So I actually began to like a guy, I had liked him kinda when I dated Kenny...but not as much as I do now...but I don't think this boy n me are on the same level...which sucks...but I can deal w/it...Kelly and everyone tell me to give up on him...b/c someone who never calls and never asks you to do things is an obvious sign that he's really not all that interested. The only thing is, is that I like how things are...just no attachment..but then I get htat jealousy feeling sometimes...and I never feel that...soo IDK...Farah n Tree r somin over...I'll finish this l8r
UNDER CONSTRUCTION
When LC closed and I enrolled in Clearview..I made sooo many new friendships that changed me soo much. Meeting Kelly made me a stronger person..and helped me have more trust in my friends than I have in the past. After I dated Kenny...which I don't regret b/c he helped me w/reality and made me stronger too...the first guy I actually cared about who never made me cry or feel pain from his crudeness. See Kelly told me not to trust him...but I did...and I didn't trust her..that's when I realized that guys brainwash girls...it's easy to do, verrry easy. B/C every girl wants to be loved, that is what we strive for. Soo I was the typical stereotype an dlet him do so to me. BUt i learned from him...to just let it happen w/a guy and not go searching. So I actually began to like a guy, I had liked him kinda when I dated Kenny...but not as much as I do now...but I don't think this boy n me are on the same level...which sucks...but I can deal w/it...Kelly and everyone tell me to give up on him...b/c someone who never calls and never asks you to do things is an obvious sign that he's really not all that interested. The only thing is, is that I like how things are...just no attachment..but then I get htat jealousy feeling sometimes...and I never feel that...soo IDK...Farah n Tree r somin over...I'll finish this l8r
UNDER CONSTRUCTION