no longer single wow I am in a relationship with a great guy :)
I did not imagine that I would ever be saying this..cynical me that I am but I found a really great guy finally. He asked me if he could change his status on facebook to in a relationship with me
I never imagine that someone would on their own want to do something to show a commitment to me. My expectations have been so low that I did all the work in the past with guys. I did most of the calling..most of the planning..most of the emoting but not anymore. This so far feels very good. He is 10 years younger than me and like me kinda a late bloomer. He is actually local. He lives 15 minutes away :) He is so sweet and giving and I can tell him anything.,,any way I am feeling. I can tell him my needs and he is responsive. He really is mostly calm and layed back. There are some issues revolving around his mom but I layed out some boundaries and it's been better. I am gonna have a Valentine on Valentine's Day :)
I am scared sometimes..detatched at others..not used to this but liking it. My brain isnt always my best friend and does this wierd am I attracted to him, I am attracted to him thing...eventually it shuts off and I find I am and feel all warm and happy. He is a lot like me in many ways. We like many of the same things (interests, music, movies,tv).
I am so glad I took a chance and wrote him..this stranger way back because if I didn't I would miss out on knowing this wonderful guy who really seems to care about me and who seems strong enough for me (since I have been way stronger than most of the guys I have been with).
I am taking it day by day. I have no idea if this will last. I do not wanna look far ahead. I just wanna enjoy this.
It has been so long since I could say I was in a relationship. I have had whatever he is for so long...I never lied to myself and called them real relationships...well this one is.
I deserve someone as nice as him. I am very good to him as well.
I turned off most of my ads (the ones I could remember) . My status on facebook is in a relationship as it is on Ok Cupid. Still surreal since I have had very few guys ever be my boyfriend...I havent yet called him my boyfriend nor has he called me his girlfriend but soon that will happen. It is taking time just to adjust to the concept of finally being in a relationship. I am not triggered. I am not eggshell walking. I am totally myself..so honest and open. No games. No holding back. No obsessing. This is an equal relationship...both giving and receiving..both making effort and communicating with each other..not one of us is doing more work than the other.
This feels pretty healthy :)
I never imagine that someone would on their own want to do something to show a commitment to me. My expectations have been so low that I did all the work in the past with guys. I did most of the calling..most of the planning..most of the emoting but not anymore. This so far feels very good. He is 10 years younger than me and like me kinda a late bloomer. He is actually local. He lives 15 minutes away :) He is so sweet and giving and I can tell him anything.,,any way I am feeling. I can tell him my needs and he is responsive. He really is mostly calm and layed back. There are some issues revolving around his mom but I layed out some boundaries and it's been better. I am gonna have a Valentine on Valentine's Day :)
I am scared sometimes..detatched at others..not used to this but liking it. My brain isnt always my best friend and does this wierd am I attracted to him, I am attracted to him thing...eventually it shuts off and I find I am and feel all warm and happy. He is a lot like me in many ways. We like many of the same things (interests, music, movies,tv).
I am so glad I took a chance and wrote him..this stranger way back because if I didn't I would miss out on knowing this wonderful guy who really seems to care about me and who seems strong enough for me (since I have been way stronger than most of the guys I have been with).
I am taking it day by day. I have no idea if this will last. I do not wanna look far ahead. I just wanna enjoy this.
It has been so long since I could say I was in a relationship. I have had whatever he is for so long...I never lied to myself and called them real relationships...well this one is.
I deserve someone as nice as him. I am very good to him as well.
I turned off most of my ads (the ones I could remember) . My status on facebook is in a relationship as it is on Ok Cupid. Still surreal since I have had very few guys ever be my boyfriend...I havent yet called him my boyfriend nor has he called me his girlfriend but soon that will happen. It is taking time just to adjust to the concept of finally being in a relationship. I am not triggered. I am not eggshell walking. I am totally myself..so honest and open. No games. No holding back. No obsessing. This is an equal relationship...both giving and receiving..both making effort and communicating with each other..not one of us is doing more work than the other.
This feels pretty healthy :)