Love, In Bloom?
Love is fickle.
It can be the greatest gift or the biggest regret. I thought I was in love once. I think in some small way I may always be. He was amazing. Everything he did was magical. He is so talented and funny, and saw me for me, no games. Unfortunately due to a stupid mistake on my part, we are barely friends. It's depressing to think that this boy will always have a piece of me, a piece i'll never get back.
Frankly, I don't think I want it back. I gave it to him willingly, I just hope he keeps it with positive meaning.
Love and attraction has been on my mind lately, well since school started in September anyway. There's this girl, she intrigues me. Everytime I talk with her, its just one amazing conversation after another. She's passionate about women's issues and change and refuses to label herself for the needs of other people. She is beautiful inside and out. I've been kind of obsessing over her, she's all I can think about. It's about time, I haven't felt like this since my ex (and that was last year). I'm a little hesitant to make a move, I get a feeling that she's into me but I have limited experience dating women. Most of my exes have been men, and they are easier to handle. She's so unique that I don't want to fuck it up. Kind of torn. You would think that friends would be able to give the best advice but I think I just confuse them. They think don't know what I want. Honestly, I love who I love, I don't care about sex and gender, I only consider the person.
Time will tell what will happen but I know I want to spend more time with her. I may even be brave enough to invite her to our Girls Night, now that would be something. I think there should be warning growing up over how complicated love can be. Hahah, maybe more of us would of been better prepared.