"I can't wait to make mistakes"
I have been at the All Staff meeting this morning and I have been entirely focused on so many outside influences lately. With my friends and not understanding people's behavioral responses to things...I have been trying to assess daily life in the hope that it will make sense and that I can find less fear in it. Anyway, we had a guest speaker that solidified all of my experiences and made them such a part of my natural existence. She put into perspective what I had been struggling to identify. I am going to list some of the quotes and try to explain them in order to create some sort of understanding as to why they were so important to hear.
"Repeat after me: I can't wait to make mistakes. I can't wait for you to make mistakes"
-we are so afraid in our culture to make mistakes. I make them constantly and try to own up to them as best as possible. I try to own up to the feelings that I have. I try to own the truthful response and identify that a mistake is a good thing because it is the next step to truly learning. You must make mistakes to learn.
"You have to let go of your rage." -truly, it is a must. You can't hold on to this anger in order to move forward.
"If you have not felt anger, frustration or confusion within the realm of handling diversity, then you are on the fringe...you have not lived your life yet"
-This quote makes complete sense in the capacity of understanding one must have of identifying rage and anger. You can't suppress these types of emotions as they will make you sick. They live as diseases in your body and soul. Feel anger...work through it. Feel frustration...as it is a common response to fear. Feel confusion...there are many unanswered questions in this world.
"We are so afraid of emotion.......People will walk around mountains so as not to ever confront their feelings"
-Many people know that I live with a fluid understanding of my feelings. It is not solid as I have so much to learn as to how I respond to certain situations. This speaker gave me some validity. I am not afraid of emotions. I fear trust. I can emotionally trust someone with information that I deem appropriate for them to know. The trust ceases to exist when I know that truth and honesty are not there. I handle this with my emotions. I read emotion intuitively. People don't think that I read things well....I hate to tell the world that I do. I am able to see things coming far before I want to and it is fearful. But I go in with my heart and work with it. I am not afraid of my emotion as emotion is so necessary. It sustains us. It drives us. People that are analytical say that they don't use emotion. They are not connected to their heart. Yes...yes you are. You are just fearful of what it can do. The minute you open it though, the world is your oyster and the power is so much greater than you had when you suppressed its need to be free.
"People who have spent years avoiding their feelings will never be affected."
-I learned this in my master's work. When I avoided my feelings....my true feelings I could never be totally affected. I could never truly help someone because my life had not been affected. I was of no use. It was when I confronted my feelings that I started to make sense of how my life could be of use.
"Where there is fear, you will have rigid defense."
-I always use the quote...."The opposite of love is fear" My professor taught me this. I totally and completely prescribe to this model. The people that fear things can never truly love. Their hearts will never truly love. This saddens me. There is much room in your heart for love if you dispell fear. I was taught this again recently and will never forget my reawakening to this idea.
"Pretense is our worst enemy"
-no need. Look up the word pretense and figure it out. This is the most truthful statement in the history of man.
Lastly, and what I truly believe. Ghandi said it best when he said, "be the change you wish to see in the world"
This women said, "Be in the difference....Be the difference....Live in the difference."
-Don't prescribe to what people think you should be. Be who you are. Be all the different things that you are. Be proud of what you are. What you believe in. Be the difference. Don't live to other people's standards. I have been trying to do this all of my life and I believe that it has made me the person that I am today. I am me. I am different. I am the difference.
This is not meant to sound like anything but thoughts that I agreed with and my viewpoint towards them. I still have much to learn. I still have many mountains to climb. I still have much to work on in regard to managing my emotions. I still have much desire to do all these things and learn more than there is to learn. I will always strive to be better, kinder, more open, more loving, different and have an open heart. I will strive to be introspective and evaluate my surroundings openly. I will try to live the best way I know possible. Hence my viewpoint on the peaceful warrior. I choose to live with a warrior's spirit. Ready to climb the next mountain....take risks....love. Love to the best of my ability.
I have made a few decisions today...I sat in the room knowing that I had to accomplish two things in this world. One, is the Ph.D. I will be starting to work on it without being afraid anymore. I will apply this year. I will. I will also start to work on Holistic Therapy while I continue my education. Even if I don't do it till after my Ph.D. it will be a part of me. I will not shut that part of my life out because of fear. I will NOT be fearful anymore. I will be open to the fear and process through it.
*I WILL MAKE MANY MISTAKES* I have made many mistakes. Mistakes are good. They have made me who I am. They will make me who I am going to be. I hope to make many mistakes in my life.
These are my thoughts. Do with them what you will. I am an inquisitive person and I assume that others are too. I think I should live with more mystery than I have, but this is me. This is who I am. These are my honest thoughts. If this is a mistake then so be it. So be it.
I love each and every one of you for different reasons. I have a lot of room for all of you and I ask you to be okay with that....if not for you, for me. These are my emotions and responses. This is my path. I would ask nothing but honsety and support as something you can allow me to have from you. Honesty and support. Two things I am willing to give to you. Two things I am also horribly up front about when I meet someone new. I am very honest with them that my pet peeves revolve around these ideals. Someone taught me that filters are overrated. I am working on this. With your honesty and support I may be able to respond in the sense that those filters truly will never exist....it is then that I feel I will be able to do for the world what it has done for me. Thanks for reading. Respond if you would like...I would appreciate knowing if my words matter even though I shouldn't need them to.
"Repeat after me: I can't wait to make mistakes. I can't wait for you to make mistakes"
-we are so afraid in our culture to make mistakes. I make them constantly and try to own up to them as best as possible. I try to own up to the feelings that I have. I try to own the truthful response and identify that a mistake is a good thing because it is the next step to truly learning. You must make mistakes to learn.
"You have to let go of your rage." -truly, it is a must. You can't hold on to this anger in order to move forward.
"If you have not felt anger, frustration or confusion within the realm of handling diversity, then you are on the fringe...you have not lived your life yet"
-This quote makes complete sense in the capacity of understanding one must have of identifying rage and anger. You can't suppress these types of emotions as they will make you sick. They live as diseases in your body and soul. Feel anger...work through it. Feel frustration...as it is a common response to fear. Feel confusion...there are many unanswered questions in this world.
"We are so afraid of emotion.......People will walk around mountains so as not to ever confront their feelings"
-Many people know that I live with a fluid understanding of my feelings. It is not solid as I have so much to learn as to how I respond to certain situations. This speaker gave me some validity. I am not afraid of emotions. I fear trust. I can emotionally trust someone with information that I deem appropriate for them to know. The trust ceases to exist when I know that truth and honesty are not there. I handle this with my emotions. I read emotion intuitively. People don't think that I read things well....I hate to tell the world that I do. I am able to see things coming far before I want to and it is fearful. But I go in with my heart and work with it. I am not afraid of my emotion as emotion is so necessary. It sustains us. It drives us. People that are analytical say that they don't use emotion. They are not connected to their heart. Yes...yes you are. You are just fearful of what it can do. The minute you open it though, the world is your oyster and the power is so much greater than you had when you suppressed its need to be free.
"People who have spent years avoiding their feelings will never be affected."
-I learned this in my master's work. When I avoided my feelings....my true feelings I could never be totally affected. I could never truly help someone because my life had not been affected. I was of no use. It was when I confronted my feelings that I started to make sense of how my life could be of use.
"Where there is fear, you will have rigid defense."
-I always use the quote...."The opposite of love is fear" My professor taught me this. I totally and completely prescribe to this model. The people that fear things can never truly love. Their hearts will never truly love. This saddens me. There is much room in your heart for love if you dispell fear. I was taught this again recently and will never forget my reawakening to this idea.
"Pretense is our worst enemy"
-no need. Look up the word pretense and figure it out. This is the most truthful statement in the history of man.
Lastly, and what I truly believe. Ghandi said it best when he said, "be the change you wish to see in the world"
This women said, "Be in the difference....Be the difference....Live in the difference."
-Don't prescribe to what people think you should be. Be who you are. Be all the different things that you are. Be proud of what you are. What you believe in. Be the difference. Don't live to other people's standards. I have been trying to do this all of my life and I believe that it has made me the person that I am today. I am me. I am different. I am the difference.
This is not meant to sound like anything but thoughts that I agreed with and my viewpoint towards them. I still have much to learn. I still have many mountains to climb. I still have much to work on in regard to managing my emotions. I still have much desire to do all these things and learn more than there is to learn. I will always strive to be better, kinder, more open, more loving, different and have an open heart. I will strive to be introspective and evaluate my surroundings openly. I will try to live the best way I know possible. Hence my viewpoint on the peaceful warrior. I choose to live with a warrior's spirit. Ready to climb the next mountain....take risks....love. Love to the best of my ability.
I have made a few decisions today...I sat in the room knowing that I had to accomplish two things in this world. One, is the Ph.D. I will be starting to work on it without being afraid anymore. I will apply this year. I will. I will also start to work on Holistic Therapy while I continue my education. Even if I don't do it till after my Ph.D. it will be a part of me. I will not shut that part of my life out because of fear. I will NOT be fearful anymore. I will be open to the fear and process through it.
*I WILL MAKE MANY MISTAKES* I have made many mistakes. Mistakes are good. They have made me who I am. They will make me who I am going to be. I hope to make many mistakes in my life.
These are my thoughts. Do with them what you will. I am an inquisitive person and I assume that others are too. I think I should live with more mystery than I have, but this is me. This is who I am. These are my honest thoughts. If this is a mistake then so be it. So be it.
I love each and every one of you for different reasons. I have a lot of room for all of you and I ask you to be okay with that....if not for you, for me. These are my emotions and responses. This is my path. I would ask nothing but honsety and support as something you can allow me to have from you. Honesty and support. Two things I am willing to give to you. Two things I am also horribly up front about when I meet someone new. I am very honest with them that my pet peeves revolve around these ideals. Someone taught me that filters are overrated. I am working on this. With your honesty and support I may be able to respond in the sense that those filters truly will never exist....it is then that I feel I will be able to do for the world what it has done for me. Thanks for reading. Respond if you would like...I would appreciate knowing if my words matter even though I shouldn't need them to.