Pride Picnic
So, this weekend Melinda isn't going to be home, she's going out of town. She wants me to go out and do things but I know at the end of the day when she knows where I really want to go, she won't be so into it. I want to go to this picnic (Day in the Sun Picnic) its being coordinated by The Akron Pride Center. I really wanted her to go too, but let's be realistic, she would never do such a thing. This sounds stupid but I want to be at "one" with my homosexuality like I use to. Almost everyone around me was gay but now I'm limited to just her. Don't get me wrong at all, I care so much for her and love her company but I would feel good to have someone around that reminds me of where I'm from and that I can relate to in this aspect of my life. She's not really the type of person to shout on the roof top that she's gay but to be honest I am. (And it's funny she looks gay and I can pass either way..lol) I feel good when walking through a store and I can hold my girlfriend's hand. I feel good when I can lean in and kiss my girlfriend in public. Not grossly kiss her but just something little on the lips. I had that once. I need it with her though.
She goes out all the time. I'm at home. I ask to go places. Only to be told, "I'm not sure I want you to go "there!"" I should not have to ask to go anywhere and I should not have to feel guilty for wanting to go to certain places. I have never once made her believe she ever had to ask permission to go any place EVER. I'm not really feelin' this double standards kinda thing. I've proved enough to her. I'm here, aren't I? I don't want to leave. No one here interest me enough to ruin everything I have built for myself here. And I am NOT going to live locked away for mistakes I've made in the past. I've apologized. And she is in no way, shape, or form living locked away for the mistakes she made before, during, and after the one mistake I made. I'm not holding her to them. Those mistakes don't make her and they don't make US. We're stronger than that. She should have respect for me and our relationship. Give me freedom. I give her hers.
She goes out all the time. I'm at home. I ask to go places. Only to be told, "I'm not sure I want you to go "there!"" I should not have to ask to go anywhere and I should not have to feel guilty for wanting to go to certain places. I have never once made her believe she ever had to ask permission to go any place EVER. I'm not really feelin' this double standards kinda thing. I've proved enough to her. I'm here, aren't I? I don't want to leave. No one here interest me enough to ruin everything I have built for myself here. And I am NOT going to live locked away for mistakes I've made in the past. I've apologized. And she is in no way, shape, or form living locked away for the mistakes she made before, during, and after the one mistake I made. I'm not holding her to them. Those mistakes don't make her and they don't make US. We're stronger than that. She should have respect for me and our relationship. Give me freedom. I give her hers.