ah yes
ya gotta love randomly waking up at 6 in the morning and having a mind overflowing with worries that in the daylight will become much less whats the word I'm looking for..taxing, omnipresent..overwhelming maybe? annoying most of all. i guess the bottem line is that I feel under appriciated. which I guess everyone does and is a selfish bitchy way to feel but fuck you thats how I feel. everywhere and nowhere. what is it that makes us feel as though we have to never say whats REALLY on our minds. for one reason or another things are sugar-coated, details left out..self preservation to varying degrees I suppose..and I guess well maybe you or I don't want to hear everything. i suppose we are all a little lost right now huh? if not a little a whole hell of alot.everyones lives seem to be changing so drastically lately i guess I need to keep all of these things in mind. i wrote openly about how I really feel right now better say something along the lines of, "I'm really tired and stressed out and drank alittle too much last night." write all it off ya know. haha double meaningjfdksal; I'm going back to bed.