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[soulofocean]

[Voice]

I...

[There's a long pause, so quiet that soft breathing can be heard, along with a rumor of waves in the background.]

...I don't even have words.

Was I really like that once? That... insufferable?

[A little laugh, obviously bitter, but faking it well.] You don't have to answer that for me. But it means I'm a better person now, right

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voice; 1/2

[redstrength]

...Umi..

voice;

[redstrength]

I don't think you have to apologize for anything like that.

voice; 1/2

[soulofocean]

[Have a long hesitant silence before she replies.]

voice;

[soulofocean]

...I just can't believe the stupid things I told you. That's all.

voice;

[redstrength]

Still. You were cursed, so it's okay.

voice; 1/2 the guilt shan't end

[soulofocean]

Hikaru... I wanted to use you as a way to get past the Underground.

voice;

[soulofocean]

And... even if I hate to admit it, it wasn't a far shot from what happened at the Forest of Silence. Cursed or not.

voice; sob Umi ;;

[redstrength]

...Umi, I didn't see it like that at all. I just wanted to help you and make sure you were safe. So don't think about it like that.

voice;

[soulofocean]

Sure you wouldn't see it like that. You didn't even when I really was that much of a selfish jerk. But I still hate it.

voice;

[redstrength]

I... never thought you were like that. I promise it's okay.

voice; 1/2

[soulofocean]

That's because you care about everyone. Back then I only cared about myself.

voice;

[soulofocean]

Jeez. What right does this place have to make us go through parts of ourselves we put behind us all over again??

voice;

[redstrength]

[a pause here; she's actually thinking about this]

I think... It's good that it does that sometimes. So we can look and see how far we've come from there.

voice;

[soulofocean]

That's what I've been trying to tell myself since last night. Midnight was a shock. I almost died when I woke from this...

voice;

[redstrength]

I think that's the truth. So don't feel bad about it, all right?

voice;

[soulofocean]

It was a curse. Even if I feel crappy I can't blame myself for it!

But.... I keep thinking just how much of that hasn't gone away at all, but is still here in me.