May 08, 2005 13:44
Im so used to being broken up inside
its really nothing new at all
same jealousy of seeing every inch of you
cant stand the thought of you falling for someone else
other then me.
What the hell am I suppose to do here?
I gave up everything , and wanted everything in the same
I can't stand the thought of not talking and holding
every bit of your heart upon my hands through those
endless long nights.
Lasting and longing for those memories deep within me
didnt think it was possible, couldnt stand the thought of it
scared to death of everything that could be
taking up something that I have been holding up for so long
first one to let you in, and the first not to let you out.
I was ready to let go. only thing that crossed my mind
every second of the nights that I drove into my blury dreams
i could have released into love for the first time
didnt think it was possible, apparent it is. Now i know it.
and im not scared. anymore.
I hate the hurt that crawls through everything you said
into what goes directly down into what I used to have
my heart now consists of nothing but bleeding pieces
that were once being put back and now have completely been
destroyed. i am a girl without feeling once again.
this time it hit me stronger. much stronger.
damn you broken hearts, feelings that I can't control.
make me not feel again. I can't live with a constant
breaking anymore. Im a girl thats used to it.
Don't come near me, dont approach me, dont tell me
that im beautiful, Id perfer to smash my reflection in the mirror.
Small surrondings no where to escape everywhere I go I face someone
who has taken a part of me. One step and another.
Going home will be the same. damn the summer. old memories and people
who will bring it all back. Time for a new place. I'll keep traveling around.
Place to place, meeting and leaving, hardshakes goodbyes. no more tearing up.
No more fake smiles, fake hearts, and tears.