I wanna cry

[soulmaking]

I wanna cry and I am no longer a woman or a guy. I never connected with my maleness more and less at the same time than the last few two years.

I realized i will always want to be a girl but I am not as strong as the people who can go through the whole ordeal. I'll just live as a man both because I'm scared and because I just don't want to go through everything.