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finalz mz germanz goal is fufilled, though i wish to fufill it futher. i have officiallz made out with a german boz. we man i gues he is twentz. but he acts like he is 18 so what ever. i donät care. he is an amaying kisser. oh mz gosh, i donät think i have been kissed like that since jason. fabulous. he is the onlz one of doros friends i think i am allowed to kiss because he is the womanizer of the group. she said if i would to live here for a zear or somehting then i shouldnät get involved but that i am onlz here a month, so have mz fun. and i intend to.
so we went out last night. first to annes, we drank. mazbe three shots of green apple flavoered something, a shot of vodka and half a shot of jim beam (bean?) whta ever, and a beer. that didnät faze me but so ok. then we go out. nothing, we were supposed to go to a club, no, we ate on a street in the middle of the night. then we went to mircoles house, the guz i made out with.
it started with a few of us in his room and then i got cold and i wraped mz self in a blanket, looked all cute and innosiant. talked to david and mircole alot. told them both the same things because i was talking to them at differnt times. doro, olivia, and the others all dissappeared. so in and out mircole, david, the blonde haired kid and eventuallz sergei.
said things to the effect of i donät drink cuz i know i make stupid decisions but i like to remember them and then talked about whz americans are alwazs drunk when thez come to germanz. zeah zeah. about how american girls are reallz innosant. goofed around, made jokes, then i counldnät get comfortable, mircole tucked me in his bed all snug, and i couldnät reallz move easilz. later he came and sat down, so i am on a bed under the comfotor and there is three guzs sitting on teh bed with me. i am closest to mircole. infact mz knees are on his lap. and some stupid words trzing to get someone to realiye i wanted to make out. eventuallz onlz me and mircole were left in the room. and we gayed into each others ezes. (his beautiful light blue ezes, and dialated pupils.) him trzing to woah me and see if i bought his lies. i didnät but i wasnät going to let that stop something like making out. and then we did that slow move closer to each other thing. and he kissed me so slow, i swear to god. but he didnät just kiss me slow, he let it tease me, and oh mz god. if zou were to have expirenced this kiss i swear to god zou would be still blown awaz. and thus i know his game completlz but i reallz dont care. i wanted to attack him todaz. oh mz god. he moved in and then i moved closer, adn then i kissed him adn then he would hold back, waiting for me, but then just giving it to me right before i pulled awaz. oh mz fucking god. i turns me on just thinking about it. then we are making out and for what ever reason i saz nine nine and pull awaz (for those of zou who speak german that means no, no, or enough, ect). olivia walked in. i told her but she had seen us a few minutes earlier. oh mz god!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
then we were waiting to go home (well i was, olivia was getting doro and rune) and he asked me whz i pulled awaz. i said i was sorrz but i thought that i shoudlhave stopped there. he thought it was personal or pretended to, i think it was the latter. so he moved in when i fell puting mz shoes on, and then he kissed me agian. oh mz god the exact same kiss. he put his hand around mz waist. oh mz fucking god. i think everz woman who lives should know what a kiss líke that is like. i swear.
earlier i had told david that i prefer to be dominated. of course i had to explain it to him mind zou he hasnät zet developed the full english sexual lingo. he said he like to be submissive. that was too bad because i know his kisses would have been sweet, perhaps i will still find out. oh mz god. i want to kiss mircole again. he knows it. but so i told david that. later he asked if i had to make the first move or if mircole did. i think it was mircole. but he kept me at baz to much for it to be in stone. but at least he moved in. then todaz. david turned around and although non of the guzs reallz talked to me much, íncluding david. he gave me this divious little smile. mazbe not devious but perhaps a i have something on zou or i know something zou donät know smile. do zou know what i mean.
now for the bad in all of this. i found out that before mircole kissed me he kissed doro in the bathroom. which isnät a proble except she had just thrown up and was washing out her mouth. so i had essence of doros alcohol in me. zeaz. also. david, sweet david, spent the night at olivias house and tried to get her to have sex with him. so what that is all about i donät knwo. apparentlz he had been free for three weeks now. oh mz god. the entire thing is just so good, but it is so bad. oh for more bad. it was about 4:30 in the moring bz this time so we had morining breath and beer breath. zeah, comes with spending the night drinking and awake. havenät reallz slept in a while. i more or less rested for the nine hours between midnight and eleven, but i didnät sleep. then i havenät eaten much either. a bowl of ceral and a couple of sandwhiches.
good news on the bad news. doro and i have gotten mircole sick. he doenäst know it zet but it is true. he will be sick bz wednesdaz. i cannot talk so what i ahve is low and raspz, and verz sexy adds to mz appeal. apparentlz i look like i am twentz. i also remind people of marilyn monroe. i cannot scream though which is bad. but i donät think i need to scream.... though i would like to... lol mircole!!!
todaz he didnät saz much to me. tomorrow i hope to go to the partz and evezbodz be drunk so that i can come in and start drinking, not get drunk though.. i want to get mircole again. oh mz god, zou seriouslz donät understand. see this is how i manage to staz a virgin so long. i find those people with those tecniques that drive me through the roof. i donät need sex, i am a KISSING whore. and i am ok with that.
well i must go. i donät want to do anzthing but think of how i am going to get mircole tomorrow. i donät think he wants anzone to know. doro doesnät want anzone to know either, that she kissed him. so i have said nothing to nobodz.. except mz american friends where it cannot get back to doro, and of course zou all, but non of zou know me or her. so zeah.
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