why am i always sad
every night lately, it seems like someone upsets me. i'm so sick of it. i fucking hate boys. i hate them. they fucking dont know when to shut their god damn mouths. i'm so sick of crying over these STUPID FUCKING BOYS who ruin my life. how the fuck am i supposed to pretend like i dont care when really i care more then anything. my heart fucking breaks in half everytime you open your mouth and another mean horrible cruel word comes out. At first we were friends, and we had a great friendship. and then suddenly you decide it's okay to make fun of me, and poke jokes at me. FUCK THAT. it's not cool. i dont fucking appreciate that bullshit. and i just try over and over again to be nicer and nicer to you.. and finally i crack. i cant fucking take it anymore, why the fuck do you need to be such an ass to me. WHAT THE HELL DID I EVER DO TO YOU?! god fucking damnit. im such a nice person and i always fucking get screwed over. im fucking sick of it. i hate this i hate it sooo much i really do. FUCK. WHY DO PEOPLE ALWAYS SAY IM FUCKING OVER REACTING, SORRY I GET UPSET ABOUT THIS, BUT ITS JUST HOW I AM. SO FUCKING DEAL. IM NOT EVER CHANGING WHO I AM. AND THATS TOO FUCKING BAD FOR YOU. "i am who i am you can like it or love it"---okay its a bad song.. but it gets the point across. will everyojne just STOP TRYING TO CHANGE ME?!?!?! i just wish i could find someone who liked me for me.
i'm sick of the mental abuse. stopppppp im so sick of it.
i'm sick of the mental abuse. stopppppp im so sick of it.