Half empty
So.. i havent written in here in a while but o well... so Ryan and i have only been dating for 3 and a half weeks now.. but we definitely have a connection... hes been gone for 2 days now and that connection jsut feels severed.. its crazy.. its not that i miss him so much i am going to cry or anything.. i mean i miss him.. but i jsut have this feeling liek part of ME is missing.. its the weirdest feeling ive ever had.. its just like.. i dunno how to explain.. he has completed a part of my life that has been missing and now hes not here to keep the circuit connected.. i know he will be back in a week and a half now but still.. its a weird feeling to deal with... its not so bad when i ahve other people around like i ahve had the past couple of nights.. but today ive been in the room alone a lot... and its not helping the feeling.. because when i sit here i think abou thim adn how i want to hug him.. bah... im sooo pathetic sometimes... oh well...