wait now prince
i know i don't update much anymore, but my mind is reeling. i should be sleeping because i have to get up at a decent hour to take care of some stuff and make lunch plans in jersey by 1. but i just read the camp manual...
i'm excited to go because i haven't been in 2 years and it's gonna be so different. there will be so many new faces and so many old ones. i'm nervous because as the digital photography specialist i'm going to have a lot of responsiblity and i really want to come into camp and prove to everyone how much i've grown up. i know what i want to do, i love it, and i can stay focused. i know jack (the new camp director) is expecting a lot. i really want to make him proud and not let him down...but on the other hand, i want to enjoy my summer. i want to go because living here, 40 minutes from every single person i'd ever want to be with (save for my sara b. who provides me with daily escape to the gym) is hard. it's hard to be alone most of the time and have to travel so far just to see a friend...or a lover. regardless of the stress the new rules & restrictions may provide for the staff this year, i know they're for the best and jack really wants to keep the staff happy as well as the campers...because if the staff isn't happy, camp won't run smoothly. also, it's better than living like this. i don't want to go, however, because i do love my friends and we change every year. who knows what next summer will bring? i really enjoy just being able to go down the shore, go to jersey and spend the weekend, go to the gym, spend time with my mom...all of it. also, i've been spending some time with a boy lately and i really like him. our personalities are just extremely compatible. we get along great as just friends, we have an insane attraction to each other, and he treats me better than any guy ever has...which isn't really saying much. also, he's just a stellar communicator which is an added bonus and makes me feel a little better than i'll be leaving in a month and god knows what will become of us. regardless of camp or school or the fact that we live 45 minutes away (which i'm still in denial about), we'll hopefully always be friends and talk. but spending time with him just makes my life super happy, so i hope that that happiness lasts for a long time...no matter what becomes of him and i.
this weekend i'm going into jersey and tomorrow i have lunch plans with trish basu. i can't wait to see her. i haven't seen her in almost a year and we have a lot to catch up on. we have the sort of relationship where we can not talk for months, and talk again and it's like nothing ever changed.
i got so excited today: ra-ra riot put my pictures up on their myspace. they're allll by me...mostly. check it out www.myspace.com/rarariot and make sure you come out to their show in philly on may 26 at the trocadero. see my profile for details. they're playing with another band from syracuse, team goldie, a band i saw years ago at the franklinville vfw with riding bikes (who broke up) and hidden in plain view, the prize fight, and a bunch more. should be tons of fun, i can't wait!!!
also, the obligitory: i miss emily and i can't wait to see her memorial day weekend hopefully/and in the beginning of june.
the end, goodnight
i'm excited to go because i haven't been in 2 years and it's gonna be so different. there will be so many new faces and so many old ones. i'm nervous because as the digital photography specialist i'm going to have a lot of responsiblity and i really want to come into camp and prove to everyone how much i've grown up. i know what i want to do, i love it, and i can stay focused. i know jack (the new camp director) is expecting a lot. i really want to make him proud and not let him down...but on the other hand, i want to enjoy my summer. i want to go because living here, 40 minutes from every single person i'd ever want to be with (save for my sara b. who provides me with daily escape to the gym) is hard. it's hard to be alone most of the time and have to travel so far just to see a friend...or a lover. regardless of the stress the new rules & restrictions may provide for the staff this year, i know they're for the best and jack really wants to keep the staff happy as well as the campers...because if the staff isn't happy, camp won't run smoothly. also, it's better than living like this. i don't want to go, however, because i do love my friends and we change every year. who knows what next summer will bring? i really enjoy just being able to go down the shore, go to jersey and spend the weekend, go to the gym, spend time with my mom...all of it. also, i've been spending some time with a boy lately and i really like him. our personalities are just extremely compatible. we get along great as just friends, we have an insane attraction to each other, and he treats me better than any guy ever has...which isn't really saying much. also, he's just a stellar communicator which is an added bonus and makes me feel a little better than i'll be leaving in a month and god knows what will become of us. regardless of camp or school or the fact that we live 45 minutes away (which i'm still in denial about), we'll hopefully always be friends and talk. but spending time with him just makes my life super happy, so i hope that that happiness lasts for a long time...no matter what becomes of him and i.
this weekend i'm going into jersey and tomorrow i have lunch plans with trish basu. i can't wait to see her. i haven't seen her in almost a year and we have a lot to catch up on. we have the sort of relationship where we can not talk for months, and talk again and it's like nothing ever changed.
i got so excited today: ra-ra riot put my pictures up on their myspace. they're allll by me...mostly. check it out www.myspace.com/rarariot and make sure you come out to their show in philly on may 26 at the trocadero. see my profile for details. they're playing with another band from syracuse, team goldie, a band i saw years ago at the franklinville vfw with riding bikes (who broke up) and hidden in plain view, the prize fight, and a bunch more. should be tons of fun, i can't wait!!!
also, the obligitory: i miss emily and i can't wait to see her memorial day weekend hopefully/and in the beginning of june.
the end, goodnight