sucks
wow, life sucks, im invisible, forgotten, or so ive come to figure and notice, that, i think, if i didnt call anyone for a week, i wouldnt speak to a soul outside of my family, that made me realize, that i must be a forgotten... just alone, just, un thought of or unwanted in anyway, i wonder, does anyone think of me? cause i sure think of a lot of people all the time, all my firends, and people i love, thats why i call them and want to see everyone, but then i sit and think, its not very often that i get calls from those same people wanting to see me, not often at all, then i think, i must not be loved by them as much as i love everyone else, i dont understand it all , and its driving me mad, i think i will, try and experiment when school starts and see, just see, casue i am tired of being the caller, im tired of always haveing to pretty much convince people to hang out with me, even my good firends, thats not right, i shouldnt have to convince ,,,, am i that lame? am i that boring? stupid? embarrassing? annoying? what is it? why cant i find it? why?