131. Stupid
365 - Day Five
Best cure to a sleepy head? Nice warm milk tea <3
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Anyways, feeling like mega crap. Funny...it isn't PMS. Pure, raw emotions just over flowing my veins. This is where I say, I am bego, 바보, ばか, stupid. Nice going, Isrien. You knew from the beginning that it'll end like this. Why did you keep on going? Why didn't you stop it when you had the chance? Now that he's going, what are you going to do? Are you just going to think that something might happen in the future?
Sure, I'm an optimist...but at the same time a realist. My life has never had a happy ending, so why am I waiting for one? I knew it was going to happen...why did I wait til I got this emotionally hurt? Hah...and what was I kidding about him maybe having feelings for me? What would he have seen in me anyways? Those "dates", his chivalrous ways, paying for everything, his smiles, his stupid "handsome guy" nickname he gave himself, that Christmas card he got me with those two hearts...
Why do I get myself into situations like these?
I should stop falling head over heels for foreigners...
Best cure to a sleepy head? Nice warm milk tea <3
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Anyways, feeling like mega crap. Funny...it isn't PMS. Pure, raw emotions just over flowing my veins. This is where I say, I am bego, 바보, ばか, stupid. Nice going, Isrien. You knew from the beginning that it'll end like this. Why did you keep on going? Why didn't you stop it when you had the chance? Now that he's going, what are you going to do? Are you just going to think that something might happen in the future?
Sure, I'm an optimist...but at the same time a realist. My life has never had a happy ending, so why am I waiting for one? I knew it was going to happen...why did I wait til I got this emotionally hurt? Hah...and what was I kidding about him maybe having feelings for me? What would he have seen in me anyways? Those "dates", his chivalrous ways, paying for everything, his smiles, his stupid "handsome guy" nickname he gave himself, that Christmas card he got me with those two hearts...
Why do I get myself into situations like these?
I should stop falling head over heels for foreigners...