~Hows It Gonna Be~

[soulfulk]

* Today I feel like I just want to get away,its weird I just feel like I need a breath of fresh air. What I want to do is save up and get out of this place me and my baby, who cares about anyone else, what matters most to me is my child. The child that isn't here yet, I can't wait I just want to love it and kiss it and hold it and kiss it. I think that event though this wasn't supposed to happen, its my awakening and calling for me to grow up and make a life for the good. I really don't care if Johnathan and I aren't together,(which we are) but even if he decides to leave us, I know and feel that if I keep my faith everything will be okay. Its in gods hands and I'm willing and able to trust in him.*

* I've been feeling lately that God is trying to tell me something, its like he knows that my situation with Johnathan needs to just end,I keep running from it when I know he's right. At times I don't know that he loves me, its like he loves me b/c he has to its like he doesn't know how to just love me all the way. I know that I love him, I know why I love him and I know that I always will love him. But is love enough? Does he know those things?*