Nov 20, 2006 19:51
Seriously. I know it's quite likely that no one will read this. But there is still a chance so I figure, why the fuck not.
Keeley- you and I were good friends once. It was never my intention to let that slip away, but it has and it's my fault. Even if it's not, I take the blame.
Dara- I miss you too. And that's the only time I'll ever say it. It gives it value that way.
But hey, I've skimmed through like 20 lj's since I logged on, and holy shit your lives have become stressful. Both of you seem to be dealing with shit that I'm usually a great help with. So I decided to apologize for not being there to offer my in-your-face-whether-you-want-it-or-not advice.
But I do have something. And it's actually very applicable, which is odd since I haven't actually spoken to either of you in ages.
I may sound like an asshole for saying this, but it seems apparent that lack of communication results in such things as failed relationships and regret. Also, the occasional "I wonder what he/she is doing now?" Sound familiar? Even if you don't think about me, I still wonder about the two of you now and again.
Dara, I don't know your whole situation. It's not my place anymore. But I do know that you've always had an issue with telling people how you feel. Ironically, this is the exact problem that causes your misery at times. Don't be offended that I'm being so direct. Blunt is my style when you're less of a friend and more of a concern. Noelle can tell you all about it.
Keeley, you and Doug seemed great together. You know, last year when I was at your little new year's shindig. I know that was a while ago. But I'm rather perceptive about these things. Well, usually. Sometimes I get blindsided. Anyway, I think that if you haven't already, you should sit down with him and be direct about what you're thinking. It will probably sound cliche, but those "I feel" statements really work. And don't let a discussion become and argument. People say things in anger that they mean at the time, but they would never hold water in the long run, you know?
As I've said before, I know none of this is my business. I apologize if I've invaded your privacy. The last thing I have to say to the both of you is that no matter what, I have large shoulders. If things get rough, they can hold a lot of tears.
With all my heart I love the both of you.