fucking terrible day

[soulesshus]

so ive been crying for the past friggin hour and does anybody care? of fucking course not! today has been the worst day ive had in a good while. work sucked. i have to work two positions at once cuz we were so damn back up today. keri was pissed at me for a while and i just found out i get to work newyears eve, fucking awesome. i had really rude customers today who almost made me cry for something that wasnt my fault. and as soon as i got out of work i thought "great now i get to see my boyfriend" nope didnt happen. apparently by "ill have my phone on and with me" he means at home charging without him there. just when i needed him the most. and when i tried to get ahold of him all i get is attitude. fucking awesome. so here i am at home all alone crying and listening to music to either help me feel better or angry. im not really sure which. hopefully eventually ill get a call from michelle and maybe from my boyfriend later on tonight. hopefully these vicodin pills i just took kick in soon. then maybe ill try and sleep until either i forget today happened or i have to go to work on saturday.

on a completely different topic, i would just like to tell someone that they better remove whatever is shoved up their ass before it perminently affects their brain and wise up because they have no fucking clue how good they have it compaired to some people we both know. i dont feel like being friends with someone who is constantly an asshole to me because they are having a bad day or year as it seems. which is not my fucking fault. okay i think im done ranting, maybe ill just lie in my bed and listen to music until something good happens.