Rambling and such
Jackie does not know how to take a hint, it seems. She called me on MLK Day and woke me up on my day off from school to see what size jeans I wear. Apparently there was a sale or something. But, seriously... what do I have to do to get rid of her?
Whatever. I'll just continue ignoring her existence, let alone the genes I inherited from her.
So... I found out recently that I can graduate in December, which means I need to get really fucking good grades this semester.
STRESS.
I'm not ready to grow up. But I can't afford to stay in college forever. What if I can't get a job when I graduate? I highly doubt I can get a Grad Assistant position to pay for my college, and I don't think there's anyway I can pay for grad school without one. What can I even do with a Bachelor's in psychology? Answer = not much.
STRESS.
On another note, I've been thinking a lot about my orientation lately. I've decided I need a woman. Unfortunately, the "type" of woman I need is hard to come by around here. (i.e. strong, confident, independent, intelligent, etc.)
No dating for me. I don't really care, either... which is weird for me. It's a nice change of pace. I think I'm growing up.
About fucking time.
Back to the Jackie-beast. I wasn't lying when I said I really don't care about her anymore. As a person, she means pretty much shit to me. Really, as far as I'm concerned, she's just some crazy bitch who I will undoubtedly run into and who is quite annoying, but who has no real meaning in my life.
In Borderline terms, this is called "de-valuing." Normally, when I know I'm "de-valuing" someone, I try to stop. Jackie, however, is a special case. She is an emotional black hole that sucks people dry. She has honestly not contributed any real meaning to worth to my life in several years, even when she tries to be a good mother.
Like the whole buying me jeans thing. Who is she trying to fool?
Oh, well. She can never get to me again. That's really all that matters.
Whatever. I'll just continue ignoring her existence, let alone the genes I inherited from her.
So... I found out recently that I can graduate in December, which means I need to get really fucking good grades this semester.
STRESS.
I'm not ready to grow up. But I can't afford to stay in college forever. What if I can't get a job when I graduate? I highly doubt I can get a Grad Assistant position to pay for my college, and I don't think there's anyway I can pay for grad school without one. What can I even do with a Bachelor's in psychology? Answer = not much.
STRESS.
On another note, I've been thinking a lot about my orientation lately. I've decided I need a woman. Unfortunately, the "type" of woman I need is hard to come by around here. (i.e. strong, confident, independent, intelligent, etc.)
No dating for me. I don't really care, either... which is weird for me. It's a nice change of pace. I think I'm growing up.
About fucking time.
Back to the Jackie-beast. I wasn't lying when I said I really don't care about her anymore. As a person, she means pretty much shit to me. Really, as far as I'm concerned, she's just some crazy bitch who I will undoubtedly run into and who is quite annoying, but who has no real meaning in my life.
In Borderline terms, this is called "de-valuing." Normally, when I know I'm "de-valuing" someone, I try to stop. Jackie, however, is a special case. She is an emotional black hole that sucks people dry. She has honestly not contributed any real meaning to worth to my life in several years, even when she tries to be a good mother.
Like the whole buying me jeans thing. Who is she trying to fool?
Oh, well. She can never get to me again. That's really all that matters.