fanfic; five minutes [2 / ?]
Title: Five Minutes
Author: souldonor
Pairing: Damon/Elena
Category: drama, romance, humor
Spoilers: mentions to the whole season
Warnings: love scene (D/E)
Summary: Elena's life turns upside down - Damon kisses him right in front of Stefan, she enjoys it, and she's not able to accept her emotions about Damon. The vampire kidnaps her, and there are the opportunity to choose: stays with Damon, or goes back to Stefan and try to make things right. Things are going to be more difficult in Mystic Falls, and the danger follows Elena. She chooses Damon, gives him a chance, and try to convince herself that her feelings are not real. But will she ever see the truth within herself?
CHAPTER 1
’So… What will we do in these 5 days?’ I really tried to not regret my decision as soon as I got in the car. His first move was switch on the radio, so we listened to Depeche Mode as we approached to New York. We’ve left Virginia already, but I didn’t ask how long did I sleep exactly. I didn’t care. The only thing which was important to me to survive those 5 days. It was the only thing.
’I think we’ll buy some beer and watch basketball on the TV. How do you like it?’ Firstly I thought he was just joking, but his face was so serious that I just looked at him with big eyes.
’Did you kidnap me and now you’re taking me to New York to watch basketball on TV for 5 days?’
’Did you really believe it?’ Damon laughed, and I looked at him with evil glance.
’Stop joking, okay? My mood isn’t the best.’
’But why? You have everything which somebody else only dreams about: you have a sexy and hot bodyguard who takes care on you, you have 5 free days with this damn sexy bodyguard, and you don’t need to pay anything. I think it’s awesome.’
’It’s apparent from this, that you are how much thinking on an other way about what is sexy and hot.’
’Then, let me know what do you think about me, if in your opinion I’m not sexy and hot.’ He smiled roguishly, and I knew he wanted my attention. Then now, it was the hour of the truth.
’I think you’re a brash, selfish and egoist person who doesn’t have any good feature.’
’Seriously?’ He didn’t look hurt, just shocked, and it surprised me. I thought he’ll be angry at me and he’ll shout and push me out of the moving car, but he didn’t do anything.
’Yeah…’ I replied uncertainly, and tried to find out what was on his mind. He looked at the road, then he bit his lower lip, and sighed.
’Then, I need to change my attitude immediately, or you’ll hate me at the end of these 5 days.’
I couldn’t believe what I heard, and when a minute passed as I just looked at him without a word, he turned his head toward me and looked into my eyes, then smiled. ’What?’
’You weren't troubled because of your behaviour so far. Do you play it, or you really want to change?’
’Why is it so unbelievable?’ He laughed a bit, and watched the road again.
’Do you even ask it? You never cared about your behaviour!’
’Then, this is the time to care about it a little bit. What should I do if I want you to like me?’ Damon asked and it seemed like he had a kind smile on his face, but it was just a short moment. I knew he had ulterior motive, otherwise he wouldn’t have asked from me a thing like that.
’If I would tell you it would not be exciting’ I replied with a calculating smile, and somehow I started to hope that he thinks it seriously this time. It’d be the world’s 8th wonder if he’d be able to change himself even a bit. ’Let’s change the topic. What do you like in me?’
Damon laughed, then he looked at me.
’Your voice sounds really sure. Am I really like you?’
’Then why did you kiss me?’ I knew that he can’t avoid this answer as much as he wanted it.
He didn’t answer at once, he just turned back and watched the road again, then he sighed. Oh yeah. This question was perfect.
’Because I knew that Stefan will come out from the house. I kissed you and made him upset.’
Liar, thought in myself, and I didn’t answer. Although he really wanted to make Stefan upset, he wouldn’t do a thing like this. In the beginning he would have done it, but not now. I tried to find out what should I say, or just hide behind the silence, but I wasn’t able to not tell anything.
’Well, here is the first lesson to me. If you want me to like you, don’t lie to me. I feel if someone lies and I hate it. If I don’t lie to you I expect it from others too.’
’OK. Sorry’ said Damon on a quietly voice, then he looked at me again, and gave me a smile propitiatorily. ’I kissed you because I wanted to do it. Because I couldn’t resist, and… That was the first time when Katherine did not manage to get into my mind as soon as I looked at you. Do you believe that it was a damn good feeling?’
I stared at him with fast beating heart, and now I believed what he said immediately. I was sure that if we would have stood in a parking, he’d have kissed me again. And I’m afraid that I wouldn’t have been able to resist… again.
’I want to ask something too…’ Damon broke the silence, and I woke up from my ecstasy. ’Why did you kiss back?’
’Is it really important to talk about?’ I started to be embarassed, and I knew I’d have felt myself guilty because of the feelings which led me when I kissed back.
I won’t lie, it was an amazing feeling, but I still can’t understand why was it so good. After all, Stefan’s kisses are so great as well… But Damon is really different from Stefan. Damon has got a feature which I can’t describe, but that is within him, and it hasn’t let me go since the really first moment.
Now that he looked at me with his extremely wonderful, deep blue eyes, and he had the typical „Damon-smile”, I couldn’t help and I smiled back at him.
’You don’t need to tell it if you’re not ready. It’s… not really important’ Damon smiled, then turned back and watched the road again.
’I’ll tell you at the end of these 5 days’ I answered and I watched out of the window again. The landscape was beautiful, and although there were clouds where we went to, the weather was still warm. I felt really good, and I thought my mood couldn’t be better.
Until a while.
’I won’t sleep with you in one bed!’ I didn’t want to shout in the middle of the hotel, but I needed to. I was in despair, I was angry, and I would have been able to kill Damon right there, right that time. Not enough that he kidnapped me and lied to every people who I love, he lied to me as well! I couldn’t believe that he was the person who I travelled with in the car.
’You don’t have choice, Madam. There’s one room left, and there is only a double bed.’ The hotel assistant replied instead of Damon, who looked really amused, and it started to really piss me off.
’You knew it, didn’t you? You lied to me!’
’I didn’t lie to you. You didn’t ask about the room, so I didn’t feel it important’ replied Damon like it’d be so normal to sleep together. Maybe it’s normal for him, but for me it’s really… dangerous. Really, really dangerous. And I didn’t want to take risk. Already on the first night? Good joke.
’I want to go home now’ I said after a minute pause, but Damon didn’t look like he wanted to take me home. It was late, it was raining, and he seemed really tired, and I just proved again how hysterical I am. To be honest… I’d have been able to laugh on myself too.
’You make drama of a tiny nuisance. I did not say with a word that we’ll sleep in one bed. I will sleep on the floor if you want, but you did not let me to tell it.’
I couldn’t answer. I would never have thought that Damon would be able to make sacrifice for me. It turned in my head that it’s maybe just a dream and I’ll wake up and everything will be the old, but it wasn’t. He was still the same, with the same blue eyes and serious face as he talked to the hotel assistant, and I just wasn’t able to stop watching him.
’Earth calls Elena, are you okay?’ Damon’s voice pulled me back to the reality, and nothing stayed from his serious physiognomy which he had earlier.
’Y-Yeah, I was… I was just thinking.’ I grabbed the key of the hotel room, and didn’t look at Damon, just headed toward the elevator, and when it arrived I immediately pushed the button with the number 14 on it.
It wasn’t a little hotel, so I was surprised that only one room left with a double bed, but I haven’t cared already. I was tired, I wasn’t able to thinking anymore, and the only thing I wanted was sleep.
The hotel room was bigger than I expected, so when I turned on the lights and I saw that great room and the bed I could say only one thing.
’Wow…’
’I like this word. You should use it more’ Damon appeared behind me and smiled at me. ’I packed a couple of clothes and more important things for you before we came.’ He put a smaller suitcase next to the bed, and I was so shocked I couldn’t tell anything. Damon… packed… for me?
’What did we bring exactly?’ I started to be nervous and I opened the suitcase quickly. ’Did you rummage among my things?’
’You’re wrong’ he smiled, and sat down onto the bed. ’I didn’t rummage, I just packed some clothes, hygienic supplies and your diary.’
’Wait… You read my diary?’ I was increasingly more nervous, but he stayed calm, and it really annoyed me.
’Why are you so upset? Am I a person who reads others’ diary?’
’Hm, let me think…’ I said as I stood up, and I looked at him angrily. ’Yes, you are!’
’Awh, it wasn’t nice even from you!’ He tried to look like he was hurt by my words, but I saw through his mask. He wanted me to feel myself guilty, but I’ve felt it already, so he didn’t need to reach it. The only difference, that I felt myself guilty because of my decision, not because of him.
’Just answer my question! Did you read it?’
He looked at me seriously, and when he approached to me I started to feel fear within myself, but I really tried to not show it.
’You are not able to trust me, aren’t you?’
’Damon, answer my question!’ I almost shouted as he came closer and closer to me, and although I knew somewhere deeply that he wouldn’t hurt me, I really wasn’t able to trust him absolutely. I didn’t know why I felt this way about him, but sometimes he could terrify me. Like that time, too.
Suddenly he stopped right in front of me, and looked into my eyes.
’No, I didn’t read it. I noticed it next to your bed, and I thought it may be important, so I packed it too. I didn’t open it.’
I was relieved at once, and I sighed, then nodded.
’And was it so hard to answer?’ I tried to change the topic, but he didn’t let me.
’Why don’t you trust me?’
I looked at him and tried to find out what does he think about, but when I realized I’m too tired to find out anything, I just shook my head.
’I don’t know’ I replied and tried to go back to the suitcase, but he grabbed my arm gently, and looked at me deeply.
’I was honest, Elena. You’re waiting for the truth. Me too.’
I was thinking for a moment what should I say to him, but I decided the easier answer.
’Trust is not free, Damon.’
He left hold of my arm, and I stayed there for a while, but after a long minute I went to the bathroom, and closed the door behind me.
His touch still burned on my skin, although he didn’t hold me tight. I could hardly breath, and I felt so confused then never before. I was disturbed by my missing memories, my emotions, my emptiness, and I’d have been able to collapse, but I tried to hold on. I sat on the side of the tub, and sighed.
’Let’s see… I wrote my diary. Yes, I remember it clearly. After it, I went to have a shower, but then…’ My thoughts stopped, and I felt hysterical again. ’What the hell happened that I don’t remember?!’ I hit the wall next to me, but I was so weak it wasn’t a real hit.
’There’s only one thing possible… Someone compelled me and that’s why I don’t remember.’ I stood up slowly, and started to watch myself in the mirror. My dream in the car came to my mind again, and suddenly I had a really bad feeling. ’The bloody palms of mine… That girl… She was Katherine.’ My tears ran down on my face just like in my dream, and I quickly opened the door. Damon sat on the bed with a really strange face, but when he saw me crying, his face became worrying.
’Elena… What happened?’ He stood up and came closer to me, but I wasn’t able to talk, so I just hugged him tightly and I was crying like my life would have depended on it. I was exhausted, fretful, frightened and confused, so the only thing which helped was cry. ’Hey, everything will be alright!’ His voice was silently and velvet like silk, and it slowly calmed me as he caressed my back with his hand gently. It was getting harder to keep my eyes open, so the last thing I remember is his voice, his smell and his embrace around me. Then… I fell asleep.
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Author: souldonor
Pairing: Damon/Elena
Category: drama, romance, humor
Spoilers: mentions to the whole season
Warnings: love scene (D/E)
Summary: Elena's life turns upside down - Damon kisses him right in front of Stefan, she enjoys it, and she's not able to accept her emotions about Damon. The vampire kidnaps her, and there are the opportunity to choose: stays with Damon, or goes back to Stefan and try to make things right. Things are going to be more difficult in Mystic Falls, and the danger follows Elena. She chooses Damon, gives him a chance, and try to convince herself that her feelings are not real. But will she ever see the truth within herself?
CHAPTER 1
’So… What will we do in these 5 days?’ I really tried to not regret my decision as soon as I got in the car. His first move was switch on the radio, so we listened to Depeche Mode as we approached to New York. We’ve left Virginia already, but I didn’t ask how long did I sleep exactly. I didn’t care. The only thing which was important to me to survive those 5 days. It was the only thing.
’I think we’ll buy some beer and watch basketball on the TV. How do you like it?’ Firstly I thought he was just joking, but his face was so serious that I just looked at him with big eyes.
’Did you kidnap me and now you’re taking me to New York to watch basketball on TV for 5 days?’
’Did you really believe it?’ Damon laughed, and I looked at him with evil glance.
’Stop joking, okay? My mood isn’t the best.’
’But why? You have everything which somebody else only dreams about: you have a sexy and hot bodyguard who takes care on you, you have 5 free days with this damn sexy bodyguard, and you don’t need to pay anything. I think it’s awesome.’
’It’s apparent from this, that you are how much thinking on an other way about what is sexy and hot.’
’Then, let me know what do you think about me, if in your opinion I’m not sexy and hot.’ He smiled roguishly, and I knew he wanted my attention. Then now, it was the hour of the truth.
’I think you’re a brash, selfish and egoist person who doesn’t have any good feature.’
’Seriously?’ He didn’t look hurt, just shocked, and it surprised me. I thought he’ll be angry at me and he’ll shout and push me out of the moving car, but he didn’t do anything.
’Yeah…’ I replied uncertainly, and tried to find out what was on his mind. He looked at the road, then he bit his lower lip, and sighed.
’Then, I need to change my attitude immediately, or you’ll hate me at the end of these 5 days.’
I couldn’t believe what I heard, and when a minute passed as I just looked at him without a word, he turned his head toward me and looked into my eyes, then smiled. ’What?’
’You weren't troubled because of your behaviour so far. Do you play it, or you really want to change?’
’Why is it so unbelievable?’ He laughed a bit, and watched the road again.
’Do you even ask it? You never cared about your behaviour!’
’Then, this is the time to care about it a little bit. What should I do if I want you to like me?’ Damon asked and it seemed like he had a kind smile on his face, but it was just a short moment. I knew he had ulterior motive, otherwise he wouldn’t have asked from me a thing like that.
’If I would tell you it would not be exciting’ I replied with a calculating smile, and somehow I started to hope that he thinks it seriously this time. It’d be the world’s 8th wonder if he’d be able to change himself even a bit. ’Let’s change the topic. What do you like in me?’
Damon laughed, then he looked at me.
’Your voice sounds really sure. Am I really like you?’
’Then why did you kiss me?’ I knew that he can’t avoid this answer as much as he wanted it.
He didn’t answer at once, he just turned back and watched the road again, then he sighed. Oh yeah. This question was perfect.
’Because I knew that Stefan will come out from the house. I kissed you and made him upset.’
Liar, thought in myself, and I didn’t answer. Although he really wanted to make Stefan upset, he wouldn’t do a thing like this. In the beginning he would have done it, but not now. I tried to find out what should I say, or just hide behind the silence, but I wasn’t able to not tell anything.
’Well, here is the first lesson to me. If you want me to like you, don’t lie to me. I feel if someone lies and I hate it. If I don’t lie to you I expect it from others too.’
’OK. Sorry’ said Damon on a quietly voice, then he looked at me again, and gave me a smile propitiatorily. ’I kissed you because I wanted to do it. Because I couldn’t resist, and… That was the first time when Katherine did not manage to get into my mind as soon as I looked at you. Do you believe that it was a damn good feeling?’
I stared at him with fast beating heart, and now I believed what he said immediately. I was sure that if we would have stood in a parking, he’d have kissed me again. And I’m afraid that I wouldn’t have been able to resist… again.
’I want to ask something too…’ Damon broke the silence, and I woke up from my ecstasy. ’Why did you kiss back?’
’Is it really important to talk about?’ I started to be embarassed, and I knew I’d have felt myself guilty because of the feelings which led me when I kissed back.
I won’t lie, it was an amazing feeling, but I still can’t understand why was it so good. After all, Stefan’s kisses are so great as well… But Damon is really different from Stefan. Damon has got a feature which I can’t describe, but that is within him, and it hasn’t let me go since the really first moment.
Now that he looked at me with his extremely wonderful, deep blue eyes, and he had the typical „Damon-smile”, I couldn’t help and I smiled back at him.
’You don’t need to tell it if you’re not ready. It’s… not really important’ Damon smiled, then turned back and watched the road again.
’I’ll tell you at the end of these 5 days’ I answered and I watched out of the window again. The landscape was beautiful, and although there were clouds where we went to, the weather was still warm. I felt really good, and I thought my mood couldn’t be better.
Until a while.
’I won’t sleep with you in one bed!’ I didn’t want to shout in the middle of the hotel, but I needed to. I was in despair, I was angry, and I would have been able to kill Damon right there, right that time. Not enough that he kidnapped me and lied to every people who I love, he lied to me as well! I couldn’t believe that he was the person who I travelled with in the car.
’You don’t have choice, Madam. There’s one room left, and there is only a double bed.’ The hotel assistant replied instead of Damon, who looked really amused, and it started to really piss me off.
’You knew it, didn’t you? You lied to me!’
’I didn’t lie to you. You didn’t ask about the room, so I didn’t feel it important’ replied Damon like it’d be so normal to sleep together. Maybe it’s normal for him, but for me it’s really… dangerous. Really, really dangerous. And I didn’t want to take risk. Already on the first night? Good joke.
’I want to go home now’ I said after a minute pause, but Damon didn’t look like he wanted to take me home. It was late, it was raining, and he seemed really tired, and I just proved again how hysterical I am. To be honest… I’d have been able to laugh on myself too.
’You make drama of a tiny nuisance. I did not say with a word that we’ll sleep in one bed. I will sleep on the floor if you want, but you did not let me to tell it.’
I couldn’t answer. I would never have thought that Damon would be able to make sacrifice for me. It turned in my head that it’s maybe just a dream and I’ll wake up and everything will be the old, but it wasn’t. He was still the same, with the same blue eyes and serious face as he talked to the hotel assistant, and I just wasn’t able to stop watching him.
’Earth calls Elena, are you okay?’ Damon’s voice pulled me back to the reality, and nothing stayed from his serious physiognomy which he had earlier.
’Y-Yeah, I was… I was just thinking.’ I grabbed the key of the hotel room, and didn’t look at Damon, just headed toward the elevator, and when it arrived I immediately pushed the button with the number 14 on it.
It wasn’t a little hotel, so I was surprised that only one room left with a double bed, but I haven’t cared already. I was tired, I wasn’t able to thinking anymore, and the only thing I wanted was sleep.
The hotel room was bigger than I expected, so when I turned on the lights and I saw that great room and the bed I could say only one thing.
’Wow…’
’I like this word. You should use it more’ Damon appeared behind me and smiled at me. ’I packed a couple of clothes and more important things for you before we came.’ He put a smaller suitcase next to the bed, and I was so shocked I couldn’t tell anything. Damon… packed… for me?
’What did we bring exactly?’ I started to be nervous and I opened the suitcase quickly. ’Did you rummage among my things?’
’You’re wrong’ he smiled, and sat down onto the bed. ’I didn’t rummage, I just packed some clothes, hygienic supplies and your diary.’
’Wait… You read my diary?’ I was increasingly more nervous, but he stayed calm, and it really annoyed me.
’Why are you so upset? Am I a person who reads others’ diary?’
’Hm, let me think…’ I said as I stood up, and I looked at him angrily. ’Yes, you are!’
’Awh, it wasn’t nice even from you!’ He tried to look like he was hurt by my words, but I saw through his mask. He wanted me to feel myself guilty, but I’ve felt it already, so he didn’t need to reach it. The only difference, that I felt myself guilty because of my decision, not because of him.
’Just answer my question! Did you read it?’
He looked at me seriously, and when he approached to me I started to feel fear within myself, but I really tried to not show it.
’You are not able to trust me, aren’t you?’
’Damon, answer my question!’ I almost shouted as he came closer and closer to me, and although I knew somewhere deeply that he wouldn’t hurt me, I really wasn’t able to trust him absolutely. I didn’t know why I felt this way about him, but sometimes he could terrify me. Like that time, too.
Suddenly he stopped right in front of me, and looked into my eyes.
’No, I didn’t read it. I noticed it next to your bed, and I thought it may be important, so I packed it too. I didn’t open it.’
I was relieved at once, and I sighed, then nodded.
’And was it so hard to answer?’ I tried to change the topic, but he didn’t let me.
’Why don’t you trust me?’
I looked at him and tried to find out what does he think about, but when I realized I’m too tired to find out anything, I just shook my head.
’I don’t know’ I replied and tried to go back to the suitcase, but he grabbed my arm gently, and looked at me deeply.
’I was honest, Elena. You’re waiting for the truth. Me too.’
I was thinking for a moment what should I say to him, but I decided the easier answer.
’Trust is not free, Damon.’
He left hold of my arm, and I stayed there for a while, but after a long minute I went to the bathroom, and closed the door behind me.
His touch still burned on my skin, although he didn’t hold me tight. I could hardly breath, and I felt so confused then never before. I was disturbed by my missing memories, my emotions, my emptiness, and I’d have been able to collapse, but I tried to hold on. I sat on the side of the tub, and sighed.
’Let’s see… I wrote my diary. Yes, I remember it clearly. After it, I went to have a shower, but then…’ My thoughts stopped, and I felt hysterical again. ’What the hell happened that I don’t remember?!’ I hit the wall next to me, but I was so weak it wasn’t a real hit.
’There’s only one thing possible… Someone compelled me and that’s why I don’t remember.’ I stood up slowly, and started to watch myself in the mirror. My dream in the car came to my mind again, and suddenly I had a really bad feeling. ’The bloody palms of mine… That girl… She was Katherine.’ My tears ran down on my face just like in my dream, and I quickly opened the door. Damon sat on the bed with a really strange face, but when he saw me crying, his face became worrying.
’Elena… What happened?’ He stood up and came closer to me, but I wasn’t able to talk, so I just hugged him tightly and I was crying like my life would have depended on it. I was exhausted, fretful, frightened and confused, so the only thing which helped was cry. ’Hey, everything will be alright!’ His voice was silently and velvet like silk, and it slowly calmed me as he caressed my back with his hand gently. It was getting harder to keep my eyes open, so the last thing I remember is his voice, his smell and his embrace around me. Then… I fell asleep.
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