Plans.
Caught in a cycle of hope and despair. And this despair is a cold thing it reaches out when you are not looking when you are not focussed. It arises in the moments you are watching daytime TV and when yu check Facebook for the 10th time in the day.
It arises when you read things you don't really feel like. Just cause there may not be that much else to do.
I am going to be in Jaipur for some time - hopefully that shall contain some more answers. I need a break from this city. I have already done a lot of the things on the to-do list which I had in my head when I took this time off.
- I got a tattoo (Fuck Yea!)
- I am growing my hair
- I am working out & losing weight and am the fittest I have been like ever...
- Books movies and TV shows have happened in abbundance
- Copious substance abuse
With the side matters handled it it time for the Board to discuss the matters of future strategy...
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I have a thousand ideas every day. Ideas of song and story.
Ideas of religion and God and human purpose. Ideas about the world I see and the 1000s of internet articles I read about everything.
And there is like this wall of water which I cannot seem to put my fingers through - on the other side lies my keyboard. I need to stop thinking so much about stuff and just write.
Here is hoping more words per minute for a lot more minutes.
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I need to travel - however it may not be appreciated much by the family. I want to do Kerala backwaters in Dec. And a larger Rajasthan trip in Jan. In the coming summer a lot of the mountains and the much much belated US trip.
I have been really bitten by the travel bug (finally!). This may not be obvious but its true. I think I am more adventurous and more ready-for-anything than I have ever been.
This time has definitely helped in the whole life philosophy bit.
Its a beautiful thing when you realise you still have the ability to surprise yourself.
It arises when you read things you don't really feel like. Just cause there may not be that much else to do.
I am going to be in Jaipur for some time - hopefully that shall contain some more answers. I need a break from this city. I have already done a lot of the things on the to-do list which I had in my head when I took this time off.
- I got a tattoo (Fuck Yea!)
- I am growing my hair
- I am working out & losing weight and am the fittest I have been like ever...
- Books movies and TV shows have happened in abbundance
- Copious substance abuse
With the side matters handled it it time for the Board to discuss the matters of future strategy...
***
I have a thousand ideas every day. Ideas of song and story.
Ideas of religion and God and human purpose. Ideas about the world I see and the 1000s of internet articles I read about everything.
And there is like this wall of water which I cannot seem to put my fingers through - on the other side lies my keyboard. I need to stop thinking so much about stuff and just write.
Here is hoping more words per minute for a lot more minutes.
***
I need to travel - however it may not be appreciated much by the family. I want to do Kerala backwaters in Dec. And a larger Rajasthan trip in Jan. In the coming summer a lot of the mountains and the much much belated US trip.
I have been really bitten by the travel bug (finally!). This may not be obvious but its true. I think I am more adventurous and more ready-for-anything than I have ever been.
This time has definitely helped in the whole life philosophy bit.
Its a beautiful thing when you realise you still have the ability to surprise yourself.