[oneshot] Teach me how to count..
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Teach me how to count
How much you’ve made this heart flung in uncertainty as those girls step into our life, for you who let them in just to hurt them with your kindness.
“YoonHo yah..ShiYeon’s waiting out there..”
“Oh..tell her I can’t teach her Math today..I don’t feeling well..” you walked back to your room after taking some antibiotics.
“Aissh..why don’t you tell me you’re sick..? I’ll make you porridge..” I walk to the front door to tell ShiYeon about it.
“Ah..Jae..I’m okay..I just..not feeling well..” you’re so stubborn YoonHo yah.
……….
…..
“I’ll tell MiYoung and HaRim if you can’t tomorrow..”
“Thank’s JaeJoong ah..you’re the best..” you smiled weakly as I placed the tray in front of you.
“Ah…Jae..feed me…” you pleaded with those almond orbs so deep onto me.
“You can eat by yourself…don’t be such child..” I act as if your puppy eyes do nothing to me.
“Just in a time like this…please..” you grabbed my hand, hold me from going out.
I heaved a defeated sigh, “Okay…tsk…you have YeongSan, IlRae, SooHee, JiH-“
“They’re just friends Jae yah..they know nothing about me….about us…”
“Then don’t make them think they’re more than what you’ve think YoonHo yah..I know they’ll think like that…” I blew the nth spoon of the porridge before it ended up in your mouth. “What do you mean about us..? I don’t think they should know all about us..I’m just your so called friend..just like the others…”
“NO…you are more than that--I mean..you’re my best friend..who knows me better than the others..” Is that it? I’m just your best friend YoonHo yah?
Then I’ll be one till you get bored with me.
How much you’ve broke my heart and me, myself will took each part for you to break it again while I’m trying to cure your pain.
“YOONHO..!!YoonHo yah..wake up..YoonHo yah, open your eyes damn it..Jeong YoonHo open your damn eyes..!!” I shook your shoulder to wake you up. I hate the smell of this hospital if it was you’re the sick one.
Stupid Jeong YoonHo! What makes you do this?
“J-Jae..”
I stood up immediately and reach your arm. “YoonHo-thank god..what’ve got into you..? Are you crazy..? Jump into traffic is not a good idea you know..?” I really need some explanation about this.
“I-I’m sorry Jae..please don’t cry..”
I-I’m crying? “How the hell I can’t..? My best friend committed suicide by crossing the red light…why shouldn’t I cry..?” I’m mad, my heart ripped apart at the fact that you want to end your life. “You better tell me the reason or I will regretted being your friend..”
“T-the debt collector killed my parents..I have no one now JaeJoong ah..even MiYoung said---I have no one JaeJoong ah-“
“Pabo..what am I to you..? A stranger..? We’ve shared apartment for almost five years..you said that I’m your best friend but now you say you have no one..?” I hold you, ignoring wound you got from the accident.
“I don’t want to be a burden Jae yah..you’ve been so nice to me..telling you this just make me feel guiltier..” you pulled my head to the crook of your neck. I can feel your existence.
How many things that brought me to you, and your uncertainty again.
"About MiYoung..did she rejected you..?"
"No..! I didn't even confessed anything..she's just a friend Jae ah..she's just..." you can't even tell me about her. She must've break your heart, YoonHo yah.
"Jae yah..don't ever mention their names again..they don't deserve to slip out of your lips.." What is this all about?
"They-do you mean the girls..? Why..?"
"Jae.." You grabbed my hand and dragged me to your room. It's too sudden. You hugged me till we both fall on your bed.
"YoonHo-"
"Saranghae JaeJoong ah..jeongmal saranghae.."
"YoonHo I-"
"I'm tired Jae yah..they said you're ugly, you're such a drag queen, you're being shamelessly stick with me..I'm tired of acting like I never hear those words..I'm tired of thinking if you ever heard those mock and tried hard to close your ears from them...because I know those aren't true..I am the one who want you for myself..I am so selfish JaeJoong.."
"I'm okay..YoonHo yah..in fact...I've been waiting for you to say that.." finally YoonHo yah. "I'm fully yours, YoonHo yah.."
But this once, for 100% you cure my broken heart. If it possible, how far have we go through for our love?
FIN
Teach me how to count
How much you’ve made this heart flung in uncertainty as those girls step into our life, for you who let them in just to hurt them with your kindness.
“YoonHo yah..ShiYeon’s waiting out there..”
“Oh..tell her I can’t teach her Math today..I don’t feeling well..” you walked back to your room after taking some antibiotics.
“Aissh..why don’t you tell me you’re sick..? I’ll make you porridge..” I walk to the front door to tell ShiYeon about it.
“Ah..Jae..I’m okay..I just..not feeling well..” you’re so stubborn YoonHo yah.
……….
…..
“I’ll tell MiYoung and HaRim if you can’t tomorrow..”
“Thank’s JaeJoong ah..you’re the best..” you smiled weakly as I placed the tray in front of you.
“Ah…Jae..feed me…” you pleaded with those almond orbs so deep onto me.
“You can eat by yourself…don’t be such child..” I act as if your puppy eyes do nothing to me.
“Just in a time like this…please..” you grabbed my hand, hold me from going out.
I heaved a defeated sigh, “Okay…tsk…you have YeongSan, IlRae, SooHee, JiH-“
“They’re just friends Jae yah..they know nothing about me….about us…”
“Then don’t make them think they’re more than what you’ve think YoonHo yah..I know they’ll think like that…” I blew the nth spoon of the porridge before it ended up in your mouth. “What do you mean about us..? I don’t think they should know all about us..I’m just your so called friend..just like the others…”
“NO…you are more than that--I mean..you’re my best friend..who knows me better than the others..” Is that it? I’m just your best friend YoonHo yah?
Then I’ll be one till you get bored with me.
How much you’ve broke my heart and me, myself will took each part for you to break it again while I’m trying to cure your pain.
“YOONHO..!!YoonHo yah..wake up..YoonHo yah, open your eyes damn it..Jeong YoonHo open your damn eyes..!!” I shook your shoulder to wake you up. I hate the smell of this hospital if it was you’re the sick one.
Stupid Jeong YoonHo! What makes you do this?
“J-Jae..”
I stood up immediately and reach your arm. “YoonHo-thank god..what’ve got into you..? Are you crazy..? Jump into traffic is not a good idea you know..?” I really need some explanation about this.
“I-I’m sorry Jae..please don’t cry..”
I-I’m crying? “How the hell I can’t..? My best friend committed suicide by crossing the red light…why shouldn’t I cry..?” I’m mad, my heart ripped apart at the fact that you want to end your life. “You better tell me the reason or I will regretted being your friend..”
“T-the debt collector killed my parents..I have no one now JaeJoong ah..even MiYoung said---I have no one JaeJoong ah-“
“Pabo..what am I to you..? A stranger..? We’ve shared apartment for almost five years..you said that I’m your best friend but now you say you have no one..?” I hold you, ignoring wound you got from the accident.
“I don’t want to be a burden Jae yah..you’ve been so nice to me..telling you this just make me feel guiltier..” you pulled my head to the crook of your neck. I can feel your existence.
How many things that brought me to you, and your uncertainty again.
"About MiYoung..did she rejected you..?"
"No..! I didn't even confessed anything..she's just a friend Jae ah..she's just..." you can't even tell me about her. She must've break your heart, YoonHo yah.
"Jae yah..don't ever mention their names again..they don't deserve to slip out of your lips.." What is this all about?
"They-do you mean the girls..? Why..?"
"Jae.." You grabbed my hand and dragged me to your room. It's too sudden. You hugged me till we both fall on your bed.
"YoonHo-"
"Saranghae JaeJoong ah..jeongmal saranghae.."
"YoonHo I-"
"I'm tired Jae yah..they said you're ugly, you're such a drag queen, you're being shamelessly stick with me..I'm tired of acting like I never hear those words..I'm tired of thinking if you ever heard those mock and tried hard to close your ears from them...because I know those aren't true..I am the one who want you for myself..I am so selfish JaeJoong.."
"I'm okay..YoonHo yah..in fact...I've been waiting for you to say that.." finally YoonHo yah. "I'm fully yours, YoonHo yah.."
But this once, for 100% you cure my broken heart. If it possible, how far have we go through for our love?
FIN