Dec 01, 2003 19:53
It's been about 3 and a half months since my first post saying that I was falling in love. It's seemed so much longer. So much has happened in those few months. It seems my life has been put on fast forward. If you had told me 4 months ago that by now I would be engaged, planning to move to another country, and expecting my first child I would have had you committed in 30 seconds flat. It was INCONCEIVABLE! But here I am in exactly that position. I can still hardly believe it. I'm not really leaving all that much behind when I go except my family, but I know I would give up anything for this. Yes, I'm scared about being a father, but what parent isn't? Yes I know it's going to be hard and I also know I don't even have any real idea what that means yet, but I'll have Szarah there and I'll be there for her. I know together we could handle anything. She's going to be the best mother ever. She's so caring and tender, and has a great set of beliefs to go along with it. *smiles* Gods I love her. I could talk about her for hours. It's all I can do to keep from gushing to everyone I talk to. I want to tell everyone that I'm going to be a daddy and be married to the most wonderful woman in the world, but at the same time it seems so special that I don't want to cheapen it by telling everyone. Even when she's at her worst she still tries to make me smile and always succeeds. I know some people may say that I'm gushing because it's still new, but I know in my heart that it will be the same for the rest of my life. I've never been so happy with my life and with Szarah's love and support I know it could still be so much better. She's already urging me to write more which is a very good thing because I love it, but just can't seem to get motivated. I need the practice. My writing skills are rather out of shape altho she'd never tell me that. *happy sigh* She's wonderful. It'd be wonderful just to hold her while she sleeps. I could watch her sleep for days. So beautiful. Well, I think you all get the point. *kisses Sz* I love you sweetheart. Hope this makes you feel a lil better.