the word love
This entry was originally going to be a special entry just for Szarah, but I know I will eventually tell all of you about it anyway so I thought I would make it public.
When I first realized how strongly I felt about Szarah I told her that I loved her, but shortly after I realized that I felt something much stronger than what we today call love. No, I'm not just being sappy here. I promised Szarah that I would find a word or phrase that would live up to the feelings that I felt for her. I've been trying for a couple months now and to no avail. I have had my ears open and been actively searching the internet but I have found very little. Somewhere along the way I realized that it didn't really matter what word you use. As they said in Matrix: Revolutions. "Love is a word" The same thing has happened to the word love that has happened to profanity. It's been repeated so many times and said when it shouldn't be that it has lost its impact. All of us are guilty of it. How many times have we said things like "I love chocolate." or "I love this or that inanimate object." We've all done it more than we realize and it really is sad when I think about it. When I think of love I immediately thing of that warm floaty feeling I get when I talk to or hold Szarah. A feeling of all encompassing wonder at the beauty of a glorious person or group of people. I don't think of my favorite pair of shoes or a movie that I like better than all others. I know it may be easier to just say that you love something and we all are lazy about a lot of things like this. I have decided that in this one thing we should not be lazy and use love as a blanket term for anything that is "really good or cool". Love needs to be lifted up and out of every day conversation unless you are actually discussing your feelings about a person or people. Make it once again the powerful word that it should be because when I tell Szarah that I LOVE her I want it to be all that much more special. I know some people will say that there is a difference and that I should be able to differentiate because of how I feel. To those people I say why should I have to differentiate. If it is different use another word because love is something that shouldn't be tossed around so lightly. So in conclusion I would like to say quite simply with all the emotion and sentimentality that should be attached to it: I love you Szarah.
When I first realized how strongly I felt about Szarah I told her that I loved her, but shortly after I realized that I felt something much stronger than what we today call love. No, I'm not just being sappy here. I promised Szarah that I would find a word or phrase that would live up to the feelings that I felt for her. I've been trying for a couple months now and to no avail. I have had my ears open and been actively searching the internet but I have found very little. Somewhere along the way I realized that it didn't really matter what word you use. As they said in Matrix: Revolutions. "Love is a word" The same thing has happened to the word love that has happened to profanity. It's been repeated so many times and said when it shouldn't be that it has lost its impact. All of us are guilty of it. How many times have we said things like "I love chocolate." or "I love this or that inanimate object." We've all done it more than we realize and it really is sad when I think about it. When I think of love I immediately thing of that warm floaty feeling I get when I talk to or hold Szarah. A feeling of all encompassing wonder at the beauty of a glorious person or group of people. I don't think of my favorite pair of shoes or a movie that I like better than all others. I know it may be easier to just say that you love something and we all are lazy about a lot of things like this. I have decided that in this one thing we should not be lazy and use love as a blanket term for anything that is "really good or cool". Love needs to be lifted up and out of every day conversation unless you are actually discussing your feelings about a person or people. Make it once again the powerful word that it should be because when I tell Szarah that I LOVE her I want it to be all that much more special. I know some people will say that there is a difference and that I should be able to differentiate because of how I feel. To those people I say why should I have to differentiate. If it is different use another word because love is something that shouldn't be tossed around so lightly. So in conclusion I would like to say quite simply with all the emotion and sentimentality that should be attached to it: I love you Szarah.