...but is there a problem with the heavy particles remaining there...
I am pretty tired. I sat down with Steve last night, watched three hours worth of Gilmore Girls in a row. I was a bit upset about some things that happened that day, more of sympathy pains and a sense of helplessness. I won't elaborate, because it was Steve's issue and I butted in.
It all made me remember back to when I've been in a management position. I wondered at whether I'm a defensive person because of my experiences, or whether it's part of my natural base and it's shaped my experiences. For the most part, when I'm part of an organisation I am happy to exist on the outer. When asked about leadership aspirations (say job interviews) I tend to honestly explain that whilst I have the ability to manage and lead, it is not a role I am proactive in attaining. I am as happy to be directed as to direct, with qualifiers. Generally all positions of power I have ever taken has been based on merit... or the lack of it in others. If I feel someone is equal to me in all ways, but with more drive then I happily defer. I spose my passive aggressiveness comes in here too ^_^ Steve notices it a lil when I've gone for weeks doing stuff and I begin to feel taken advantage of. I tend to get a lil... hmmmm unhelpful.
I'm in two minds about staying home Wednesday. I might come in anyway, regardless of Prosh. I have work to do, and my project is starting to mount up.
"...you can't mount here..."
Drinks were ok on Friday... I had been a bit more eager for us to do something more quiet... but I spose I'm too boring to really suggest an interesting quiet activity. I left once the Karaoke started... god I hate that. Speaking of which I hate X-Factor... I'd never thought I'd say there was something worse then Pop-stars or Idol. However, I've been proved wrong. I wonder what the next "phase" of tv will be? Maybe there won't be another because of the HDTV explosion, they'll be more interested in producing more crap to fill bandwidth then with actually worry what constitutes this said crap.
*smiles and shrugs*
30 to go.
It all made me remember back to when I've been in a management position. I wondered at whether I'm a defensive person because of my experiences, or whether it's part of my natural base and it's shaped my experiences. For the most part, when I'm part of an organisation I am happy to exist on the outer. When asked about leadership aspirations (say job interviews) I tend to honestly explain that whilst I have the ability to manage and lead, it is not a role I am proactive in attaining. I am as happy to be directed as to direct, with qualifiers. Generally all positions of power I have ever taken has been based on merit... or the lack of it in others. If I feel someone is equal to me in all ways, but with more drive then I happily defer. I spose my passive aggressiveness comes in here too ^_^ Steve notices it a lil when I've gone for weeks doing stuff and I begin to feel taken advantage of. I tend to get a lil... hmmmm unhelpful.
I'm in two minds about staying home Wednesday. I might come in anyway, regardless of Prosh. I have work to do, and my project is starting to mount up.
"...you can't mount here..."
Drinks were ok on Friday... I had been a bit more eager for us to do something more quiet... but I spose I'm too boring to really suggest an interesting quiet activity. I left once the Karaoke started... god I hate that. Speaking of which I hate X-Factor... I'd never thought I'd say there was something worse then Pop-stars or Idol. However, I've been proved wrong. I wonder what the next "phase" of tv will be? Maybe there won't be another because of the HDTV explosion, they'll be more interested in producing more crap to fill bandwidth then with actually worry what constitutes this said crap.
*smiles and shrugs*
30 to go.