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Im absolutely terrified of the dark. I sleep with a light on every night. I cant see in the dark, so i need someone to hold my hand if they are trying to walk with me in the dark. So jayson held my hand and led me around to the other side of the park, taking the long route because i didnt want to cut through the park because there were no lights in the park. Jayson wanted to show me where his dad used to live, which was only a block away, so we walked down that way. We found the house, and stood outside it for about a minute, just talking about all of jaysons childhood memories and stuff about his dad and the house and all those other good things, and in the meanwhile we were so busy discussing his childhood that we didnt notice the car that had pulled up or the guy walking our way.
This blue car pulls up quite a ways away from where jayson and i are standing. Jayson and I finish discussing the house and start walking back the direction we came from.. which is the direction the car just parked at and near the guy who is walking towards us. The guy comes about 3 car lengths away from us and we didnt even acknowledge him until he pulled a gun out and told us to give him money. we told him we had none (i was stupid and left my wallet in the car... but i had my backpack with me that was just filled with useless empty crap like a ball of yarn and some knitting needles. thats right, im gonna try to make a scarf) ANNNYWAYS so this guy pulls out quite a big hand gun. He asks again for money and i empty out my pockets which have nothing but my car keys in it. he asks again for money and i dropped my keys on the ground and said again that i didnt bring a wallet. The guy got really upset at us and pointed his gun at me (ONLY ME! man, was jayson mad afterwards... you should NEVER point a gun at a girl! thats just rude!) the guy was within arms reach at this point, so even if he was a lousy shot there was no running away or screaming for help or anything. So I got scared, started tearing up a little, didnt cry tho, but i was glad my bladder was empty cuz i peed my pants a little... yep... i never understood how people could be so gross to pee in their pants when they're scared but now i know... it just happens. hahahaha. Anyways we had nothing to offer, we emptied our pockets fully, and Jayson had a 10 dollar bill stashed away in his wallet, so he forked that over, and the guy with the gun hung around for a few more seconds, then gave up on us and ran back to his buddies waiting in the car. I hadnt really cried or done anything up until that point, i was shaky but calm the whole time. But after they drove off, I broke down and just started crying. And Jayson tried to comfort me with hugs and kind words but Im terrified of men. Jayson knows this. I do not trust any man other than my wings crew members.
So I pushed Jayson away, put on my brave face and laughed it all off and told Jayson i just had a weak moment there but im doing better. I told Jayson that we should probably walk back to my car, and i joked about the situation and everything, totally normal and all that. and like not even a minute later my cellphone in my backpack goes off. Eason decided to give me a call at midnight for some random reason because he wanted to check up on me. I seriously think Eason has a spidey sense for me that detects when i need help. I told eason that i really needed him right now and started crying. Eason didnt understand me cuz i was blubbering so much so i passed my phone to Jayson to talk for me. Jayson did a quick explanation "yeah, we just got mugged, sharlene is pretty shaken because he had the gun on her the whole time, he didnt touch me, we're both fine though, im sending sharlene home" I got the phone back and reassured eason that i was fine, eason knew me better and didnt believe me for a second and demanded that i go home immediately. I was too shaken to drive tho so i hung out in jaysons apartment while my legs calmed down from shaking so much. Jayson made me hot chocolate, and i called lisa to let her know i wanted to stay with her for the night. But I ended up just driving to my home by myself cuz i was too afraid to get out of my car in the dark. so i drove home with lisa on my phone the whole time, telling her what happened. breaking into tears again, and getting lost on the way home cuz i wasnt paying attention where i was going.
Im kinda happy this happened. It makes for good scoops, and reminds me of how awesomely brave Jayson is... not only because he can stand up to that big ass bouncer of mine who is twice the size of jayson and pure muscle, where jayson is just pudge. But Jayson saved me from that guy, and was all calm and collected even when the guy was threatening to beat jayson. And I thought that was just Jayson putting on a tough guy front for me, trying to prove to me that he would be a good boyfriend and that he wants me more than any other man and will fight other men to have me. But the fact that jayson can be all cool when a gun is present is pretty awesome too. and jayson forked over whatever he had in an instant as soon as the gun hit me. I love Jayson. I love and adore him and think he's the absolute greatest guy in the world. I would never date him though, and i reminded him of that today.. that as much as i love him, i only love him as a friend and as a person. No other attraction, so he should stop trying to date me, and getting himself involved with me. Because seriously... Look at the stupid situations I get myself into!!! I date a bouncer and the bouncer wants to kill all my friends, i go for a stroll through the park and get a gun pulled on me.. lol im just the bringer of destruction!!! And Im only naming the bad things that have happened to me in the last 3 weeks, and i was gone for over 2 weeks of that time! i just manage to get myself into bad situations all the time. Maybe its me, maybe is Canada that's fucked up. Either way. Now I not only fear men, and fear the dark, but i fear all men in the dark.... and parks... also im always gonna carry cash on me from now on.. just in case. if $10 will do, it'll have to do.
This blue car pulls up quite a ways away from where jayson and i are standing. Jayson and I finish discussing the house and start walking back the direction we came from.. which is the direction the car just parked at and near the guy who is walking towards us. The guy comes about 3 car lengths away from us and we didnt even acknowledge him until he pulled a gun out and told us to give him money. we told him we had none (i was stupid and left my wallet in the car... but i had my backpack with me that was just filled with useless empty crap like a ball of yarn and some knitting needles. thats right, im gonna try to make a scarf) ANNNYWAYS so this guy pulls out quite a big hand gun. He asks again for money and i empty out my pockets which have nothing but my car keys in it. he asks again for money and i dropped my keys on the ground and said again that i didnt bring a wallet. The guy got really upset at us and pointed his gun at me (ONLY ME! man, was jayson mad afterwards... you should NEVER point a gun at a girl! thats just rude!) the guy was within arms reach at this point, so even if he was a lousy shot there was no running away or screaming for help or anything. So I got scared, started tearing up a little, didnt cry tho, but i was glad my bladder was empty cuz i peed my pants a little... yep... i never understood how people could be so gross to pee in their pants when they're scared but now i know... it just happens. hahahaha. Anyways we had nothing to offer, we emptied our pockets fully, and Jayson had a 10 dollar bill stashed away in his wallet, so he forked that over, and the guy with the gun hung around for a few more seconds, then gave up on us and ran back to his buddies waiting in the car. I hadnt really cried or done anything up until that point, i was shaky but calm the whole time. But after they drove off, I broke down and just started crying. And Jayson tried to comfort me with hugs and kind words but Im terrified of men. Jayson knows this. I do not trust any man other than my wings crew members.
So I pushed Jayson away, put on my brave face and laughed it all off and told Jayson i just had a weak moment there but im doing better. I told Jayson that we should probably walk back to my car, and i joked about the situation and everything, totally normal and all that. and like not even a minute later my cellphone in my backpack goes off. Eason decided to give me a call at midnight for some random reason because he wanted to check up on me. I seriously think Eason has a spidey sense for me that detects when i need help. I told eason that i really needed him right now and started crying. Eason didnt understand me cuz i was blubbering so much so i passed my phone to Jayson to talk for me. Jayson did a quick explanation "yeah, we just got mugged, sharlene is pretty shaken because he had the gun on her the whole time, he didnt touch me, we're both fine though, im sending sharlene home" I got the phone back and reassured eason that i was fine, eason knew me better and didnt believe me for a second and demanded that i go home immediately. I was too shaken to drive tho so i hung out in jaysons apartment while my legs calmed down from shaking so much. Jayson made me hot chocolate, and i called lisa to let her know i wanted to stay with her for the night. But I ended up just driving to my home by myself cuz i was too afraid to get out of my car in the dark. so i drove home with lisa on my phone the whole time, telling her what happened. breaking into tears again, and getting lost on the way home cuz i wasnt paying attention where i was going.
Im kinda happy this happened. It makes for good scoops, and reminds me of how awesomely brave Jayson is... not only because he can stand up to that big ass bouncer of mine who is twice the size of jayson and pure muscle, where jayson is just pudge. But Jayson saved me from that guy, and was all calm and collected even when the guy was threatening to beat jayson. And I thought that was just Jayson putting on a tough guy front for me, trying to prove to me that he would be a good boyfriend and that he wants me more than any other man and will fight other men to have me. But the fact that jayson can be all cool when a gun is present is pretty awesome too. and jayson forked over whatever he had in an instant as soon as the gun hit me. I love Jayson. I love and adore him and think he's the absolute greatest guy in the world. I would never date him though, and i reminded him of that today.. that as much as i love him, i only love him as a friend and as a person. No other attraction, so he should stop trying to date me, and getting himself involved with me. Because seriously... Look at the stupid situations I get myself into!!! I date a bouncer and the bouncer wants to kill all my friends, i go for a stroll through the park and get a gun pulled on me.. lol im just the bringer of destruction!!! And Im only naming the bad things that have happened to me in the last 3 weeks, and i was gone for over 2 weeks of that time! i just manage to get myself into bad situations all the time. Maybe its me, maybe is Canada that's fucked up. Either way. Now I not only fear men, and fear the dark, but i fear all men in the dark.... and parks... also im always gonna carry cash on me from now on.. just in case. if $10 will do, it'll have to do.