Life

May 18, 2005 23:26

Today I got away from the world for a while and had a good day. I spent most of my time with someone I consider one of my best friends in the entire world. Herlie Bowerman, Born on August 12th.. 81 years ago. We went and ate at Austins Restraunt and I he got me first fishing license I've ever owned. Though we didn't catch a thing, we had the best time. We laughed and smiled and he really cheered me up.. but also made me almost cry.
His wife died some years ago to cancer after they were married for 54 years, his loneliness took him to the cemetary every day where he spent hours just sitting there, until he began to come to jj's to eat and felt welcome there. We all took him into our hearts and he began to experience the care he needed to survive. I have worked there for 2 years and not a day goes by that I don't think about little ol Herlie, my adopted grandpa. He sat there in awe today, telling me over and over again how much he appreciates my company and the time I spend with him. He grabbed my hand and got teary eyed as he told me that he has only had 10 best friends in his life, and that I am one of them.. and I'm also the only one still living. I hugged him and kissed him on the cheek and told him I love him.. and that he has improved my life in so many ways. He has given me wisdom and knowledge, and laughter in my heart.
I didn't befriend him because I felt sorry for him. I befriended him because he knows that I need him as much as he needs me. I don't want him to live his elder years of his life alone and sad.. I want him to keep gaining memories and enjoy himself, and have friends. And I hope that one day when I am old and maybe alone, that someone will take me into their life and their heart and give me the strength I need to be a happy person.
Other than that I also went to the movies with one of my other best friends. He seems like he has many ups and downs. Sometimes I feel like i'm the reason he is down and it's really hard on me. I just want to be a good friend to everyone I can, I want to improve other peoples live, make them feel better about themselves, and give them hope for the next day, .. and the day after that, and so on. I want the people that surround me to be happy, whether I ache inside or I'm filled with joy. I just want to be able to look back on my life and know that I made a difference and didn't cause agony, grief, or confusion. Life is too short. I hope one day each and every person I have come in contact with will remember me as a good person that helped them in one way or another. And I want people to feel like they can come to me with their problems or for advice, and that in turn I lead them in the right direction.
I am going to bed now, and writing this has made me feel alot better. I hope that those who read this, read this with an open mind and makes them think about how good life can be, even if you get stuck in a rut sometimes.
I love you all... and good night..
K
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