Just one of those days...
I haven't written here in a while but I guess that could be a good thing...means nothing bad has happened lately. Up until today that is. I won't bother telling you what happened earlier, because after this evening those things are so insignificant. I can't believe I was even worried about them....makes me feel so selfish. My mother called me this evening, twice while I was in Genetics, which is suspicious in itself since she is very respectful of my classes. She called to tell me that the mother of my brother and sister is dying. Now I was never that close to Lee, but I am extremely close with my brother and sister, and I love them very much. So I need to drive home so my parents can have my car to drive to the funeral with. I may need to skip class all week so I can stay at my parents house and take care of the animals...and none of this feels like enough. I wish I could do something, I wish I could be there to comfort my brother and my sister, to hold them while they cry and to let them know that they aren't alone. All I could do was to promise my sister that when they take her mother of life support, that I will be waiting by my phone to answer her call. I can promise that I will be available at all hours and I will be there to rant and rile at, for as long as they need me to. I wish I could do more, perform a miracle and save Lee's life..anything, but the power of neither life nor death is in my hands so I must wait to catch the falling pieces. This is just another reminder of how precious life is, and how we need to live it while we can and to cherish those we have for only a short time. To say what needs to be said and to forgive and forget silly, petty differences. God help us.