funeral for a.....?

[soul_in_skin]

i don't want to go to work. i want to use the death of the guy that was simultaneously, during the course of a certain 5 months, one of my closest friends and also the person who hurt me most in the world, leaving long-term scars, as an excuse to sleep all day. unfortunately, i'm the only person that works this shift. so i guess i'll at least go open. then i'll probably call. say someone in my life died. and that i just really want to go home. and i won't be lying.
i'd like to say i'd forgiven him. part of me had. i couldn't see him without still acting like we were friends.
but i hadn't forgiven him yet. not completely. and i don't know when i will.
but he's dead now
and it's not really a surprise
i didn't take him to court for a few reasons - but there were two main reasons:
1. i didn't want to deal with it
2. no matter what, i still cared for andy schnelker. and i knew he would be his own destruction. i didn't need to aid that in any way.
the obituaries have proved me right.

if there is an afterlife and you can read this andy, well hey - you screwed a lot of people over in your life. but ultimately, it was because you were always a little crazy. i honestly think that you had a good heart. bad brain. abby normal, as they say in the Young Frankenstein. smart brain. short circuit somewhere. i hope when you died, that circuit got fixed, and the next life is much happier for you and for the people in your life.

~Kels