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What would a description of your exact opposite be like?
Angelus. That's my exact opposite in a nut shell. Evil, corrupt, confidant, vicious, murderer, unfeeling, uncaring, malicious ... the list of his less admirable qualities is endless. It's quite ironic that your exact opposite is really a part of you, and when your pushed to literally the edge of your humanity ... it becomes to easy to just click into that exact opposite. Which in reality. Scares me to death.
Describe your funniest childhood memory.
I wish I knew. I really do. I dont have any childhood memories, I don't even think kids in that era had 'childhoods.' We were all just manual labour to the adults of our towns and cities, just another pair of hands and really people of that time only considered having kids for that one reason ... and obviously so they could have a good screw.
Sex, marriage, kids it was all just a way of life back then. From the minute you were born you were raised in their way of thinking: you grew up, found a girl, made her your wife, got her pregnant with around ... ten kids, then left her to run after them all and make your dinner as well as clean your home and make herself beautiful for you when ever you so desired to fuck her over the kitchen table. It's not right. Not now. I see it for what it really is. Women are seen, maybe not told, but they are seen as goddesses in men's eyes. They are multi-talented, beautiful, successful, brainy ... I mean the women back then have nothing on women today.
But I'm getting off the subject.
Childhood memories for me consisted of: growing up, fucking any girl I could talk into bed, having her father beat the shit out of me, get pissed, give my parents abuse ... then I met the fem fatal figure and my life just flew like a rollercoaster through some amount of shit.
What's the furthest away you've ever been from where you were born/created? How did you get there? Why did you go? Did you return or even want to come back to where you came from?
Hell. Buffy. Evil. No/Yes.
Should I explain? The furthest away I've been is hell. I think hell for anyone would probably be the furthest away. Buffy was the one that sent me there, because I had lost my soul (once again), and I was killing and that sort of thing so really it was the only thing to do. I went because I was Angelus which meant I was evil.
This is the hard part. I didn't want to come back. Hell, in everyone's eyes, is seen as torture, pain and lots of fire. But for me it felt like justice. It felt like Angelus was getting what he deserved for killing all those people and all the pain and hurt he caused. I knew Angelus would never have suffered unless I also suffered. In hell I waited. I don't know if I waited to die or to be saved, but I know I waited. In the end I returned to my old self once more. But I'll never forget the pain and torment of hell.
Describe your 'happily ever after.'
I've done this so many times.
In my dreams there's more ... fullness ... than in reality for me. I can dream of a world where there is no evil, where I don't have to fight the good fight or any other fight for that matter. I can just live. In peace.
I think my happily ever after is to see Wesley, Cordy, Gunn, Doyle, Fred, Buffy, Xander, Willow and Giles all happy. I don't care about me anymore. They have went through so much pain that I just wish I could ... take it all back, everything that was caused by me or other people so they could live a life, never knowing who I am and never knowing who I was.
Muse: Angel
Fandom: Angel