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We're still being punished. That must be it. Why else are such awful things still happening to niisan? We're still paying the equivalent exchange for what we did all of those years ago. It might be something that I strongly believe in, but... it's still unfair that niisan is the one whose suffering. We both participated in the transmutation on that night, and it was both of our blood that we put into it. Why is my poor niisan getting the stick for it?
I can't lose him. Not now. Not after everything we've gone through.
I'm sorry... I know a lot of other people right now are going through some bad times themselves, especially anyone who was caught up in the collapse of the Fenrir tower. I really hope that anyone involved is doing okay, and... if there's anything I can do to help, just ask me. I just wish I had gotten there earlier.
I'm scared. I can't sleep, I can't bring myself to eat, and my mind is always on just what's going to happen next. I feel like I'm just going o fall apart one day, even if I need to be strong for those around me right now. And that... makes me feel even worse. I hope that this all stops soon.
I... got a letter from our State Military a few days ago. I've only told Laguna about it so far, but they asked if I could take the exam to become a State Alchemist. They said that they had appreciated the work I had done for them when I traveled with niisan, and since he got promoted, they could use someone else to work out on the field. I want to talk to niisan or Mustang-san about it, but right now... there's more important things to worry about.
I can't lose him. Not now. Not after everything we've gone through.
I'm sorry... I know a lot of other people right now are going through some bad times themselves, especially anyone who was caught up in the collapse of the Fenrir tower. I really hope that anyone involved is doing okay, and... if there's anything I can do to help, just ask me. I just wish I had gotten there earlier.
I'm scared. I can't sleep, I can't bring myself to eat, and my mind is always on just what's going to happen next. I feel like I'm just going o fall apart one day, even if I need to be strong for those around me right now. And that... makes me feel even worse. I hope that this all stops soon.
I... got a letter from our State Military a few days ago. I've only told Laguna about it so far, but they asked if I could take the exam to become a State Alchemist. They said that they had appreciated the work I had done for them when I traveled with niisan, and since he got promoted, they could use someone else to work out on the field. I want to talk to niisan or Mustang-san about it, but right now... there's more important things to worry about.