so tired of my life..
so....right now my life is okay, nothing is going tremendously wrong or anything i am just tired of the same old thing all day everyday. i just wish i had something to focus all of my attention on, i think i am going to start painting again, lock myself in my house and create pieces of art that are beautiful through my eyes only.i effing love all of my friends new and old don't get me wrong but i have been alone for way too long if you know what i mean jelly beans...i want a god damn boyfriend right now, when did it get so fucking hard for me to do that? i think i am starting to loose my appeal...if i had any in the first place lol! well i am just going to sit here in wallow in self pity guys i heart you all...just ignore me i am being complacent today