002 - [video]

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[The video switches on to a sideways, ground-level view of the inside of a Creeping Crypt apartment. There is an assortment of junk- paper bags, clothes, bits of trash, is that a teddy bear?- littered across the floor. Not lazily piled or pushed to the side, but scattered as if someone just dropped a lot of things and neglected to pick them up.]Uhh

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Uh. Wow are you okay?

[slghtlylessfake]

Uhh, yeah, that is, no, but I'll be okay, so, yeah.

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If you're sure. Can I ask what happened?

[slghtlylessfake]

Nothing happened, that is, nothing happened just now, other than me being generally useless, which, is nothing new, so, nothing happened.

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Uh. [she decides not to comment on his weird way of speaking]

Wow. I may not know you but that seems like a pretty harsh thing to say about yourself.

[slghtlylessfake]

Uhh, I don't know about that, it's not so much a harsh thing as a, factual thing.

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Do you want to be useless?

[slghtlylessfake]

No, and, I try not to be, but, so far it hasn't worked.

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If you're trying then that counts for something. A person is only useless when they strive to be, but I'm telling you all this self-depreciating crap probably isn't helping anything. I mean, what do you think it will accomplish other than to make you feel bad?

[slghtlylessfake]

Uhh... but, not saying it won't make it, any less true, like how pretending that Rufio is real won't make him, any less fake.

Uhh, Rufio is, what I named my self-esteem, but the way.

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[...he named his self-esteem?]

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...no offense but Rufio doesn't seem to be doing a very good job.

Maybe that's true about that Rufio is fake but sometimes when people hear something enough times they resign themselves to it.

And I don't care what has happened in the past, if you want to be useful, you have to think about the now, think about your capabilities and what is needed, and move forward.

Don't let anyone tell you that you can't, not even yourself.

[slghtlylessfake]

Uhh...

So, if I think about those, things, and don't tell myself that I can't do things, then I'll have more self-esteem?

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All I'm saying is that you shouldn't insult yourself the way you do.

I don't know if thinking about it in those terms is quite the best, but it might help.

[slghtlylessfake]

I don't really get it, but, if you think it will improve my self-esteem, then, maybe I will give it a try.

Thanks for the, advice.

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Sure, no problem.

I'm Winry by the way.