peter pan syndrome
so, yeah..
i've decided (i think) that i'll be more than likely taking a year off next year.
I feel like all i ever do is talk about my career and when it'll start and how my first year will be, and already i'm losing it.. it's so hard to wrap my head around everything that will be expected of me, and while i'm sure i'll be able to do everything, i feel like i'm not ready for the stress. You would think that three years of learning how to teach would make me more than ready for it all, but I'm so specific about what i want that i'm scared to accept anything else.
I don't want a split grade.
I don't want anything over grade 6.
I don't want TDSB.
So i pretty much would only accept a job teaching 4 5 or 6, in York, and the chances of that are slim.
I told my mom last night that i'm going to take a year off and take some courses so that i can teach primary, and possibly others which will increase my pay when i eventually get a job. She seemed fine with that, which made me feel better.
So here's the plan..I'll work at montys and take some courses so i'm not just doing nothing for a year..and possibly save up for a car?
I'm scared to grow up.
i've decided (i think) that i'll be more than likely taking a year off next year.
I feel like all i ever do is talk about my career and when it'll start and how my first year will be, and already i'm losing it.. it's so hard to wrap my head around everything that will be expected of me, and while i'm sure i'll be able to do everything, i feel like i'm not ready for the stress. You would think that three years of learning how to teach would make me more than ready for it all, but I'm so specific about what i want that i'm scared to accept anything else.
I don't want a split grade.
I don't want anything over grade 6.
I don't want TDSB.
So i pretty much would only accept a job teaching 4 5 or 6, in York, and the chances of that are slim.
I told my mom last night that i'm going to take a year off and take some courses so that i can teach primary, and possibly others which will increase my pay when i eventually get a job. She seemed fine with that, which made me feel better.
So here's the plan..I'll work at montys and take some courses so i'm not just doing nothing for a year..and possibly save up for a car?
I'm scared to grow up.