shit day
it's been a while since i wrote in here.
I was in my first real car accident that i can remember this morning. Just a fender bender, and luckily the other car wasn't damaged at all. So my mom's car has a dented hood and i feel bad for my bro whether or not he has to pay for it, because it was his fault. I wish this snow would hurry and and get the fuck out of here. It felt like spring yesterday and i just wish it was here.
i have about 15 assignments to do in the next month, before school starts. Not to mention the teaching block which will start as soon as I'm off, which will take a month out of my summer vacation. I have one more year of this school bullshit before i'm free and on my own. I can't wait but I'm so fucking scared. I'm really thinking about taking a year off to work before i WORK and start my career.
I thought the other day that i could potentially be starting a career in a year and a half which will last thirty years until I retire. I hate the thought that I'll be doing the same thing everyday, but I'm praying that once i get my own classroom I'll enjoy it a lot more..and not have nervous anxiety every fucking week.
I just want to go away and be on some beach anywhere other than here. I miss the smell of palm trees and coconut sunscreen and strawberry daiquiris by the pool.
And I'm dreading my next class. I can't stand the people in it who think they are going to be successful dance 'artists' with great careers.
I'm so cynical and stressed about school right now. I feel like if I didn't have someone to help me get through it, I would be a mess. I love the fact that when I need to vent and freak out about little things that won't matter next week, he's there to remind me it'll all be okay. I haven't had that in so long and I don't think I've ever had anyone care as much or listen as well as he does.
I wish it was the end of May.
I wish it was 2010 because i feel like things will be soo much better around that time.
sigh.
time for a good shit and a very boring class. haaaahhahaah.
-j
I was in my first real car accident that i can remember this morning. Just a fender bender, and luckily the other car wasn't damaged at all. So my mom's car has a dented hood and i feel bad for my bro whether or not he has to pay for it, because it was his fault. I wish this snow would hurry and and get the fuck out of here. It felt like spring yesterday and i just wish it was here.
i have about 15 assignments to do in the next month, before school starts. Not to mention the teaching block which will start as soon as I'm off, which will take a month out of my summer vacation. I have one more year of this school bullshit before i'm free and on my own. I can't wait but I'm so fucking scared. I'm really thinking about taking a year off to work before i WORK and start my career.
I thought the other day that i could potentially be starting a career in a year and a half which will last thirty years until I retire. I hate the thought that I'll be doing the same thing everyday, but I'm praying that once i get my own classroom I'll enjoy it a lot more..and not have nervous anxiety every fucking week.
I just want to go away and be on some beach anywhere other than here. I miss the smell of palm trees and coconut sunscreen and strawberry daiquiris by the pool.
And I'm dreading my next class. I can't stand the people in it who think they are going to be successful dance 'artists' with great careers.
I'm so cynical and stressed about school right now. I feel like if I didn't have someone to help me get through it, I would be a mess. I love the fact that when I need to vent and freak out about little things that won't matter next week, he's there to remind me it'll all be okay. I haven't had that in so long and I don't think I've ever had anyone care as much or listen as well as he does.
I wish it was the end of May.
I wish it was 2010 because i feel like things will be soo much better around that time.
sigh.
time for a good shit and a very boring class. haaaahhahaah.
-j