what to do with you?
I finally went to the doctor to get back on an anti-depressant, it also has stuff in it to help you sleep so maybe I will finally get some rest! I don't know what to do, I just got a job at Merry Maids but I found out that I am severely allergic to their chemicals!! I hate looking for new jobs, but it turns out that I must!
I talked to Dave last night for a little while, that was rather enjoyable. I've noticed lately that he is one person that I can really open up to, sucks you moved Dooobie! I do miss ya! I used to be able to have in depth conversations with Stef but since she has moved it has been hard for us to keep in touch, Stef if you read this, could you leave your number, I lost it when I got my new phone???
Since about the time I moved into my first apt with Kristen, I develped a habt of drinking; alot!! I started drinkin damn near everyday. I have come to a point where I realized that I need to stop drinking so much and do things that are more productive. Today will be the 5th day I have not drank anything. I am not saying that I am never going to drink again, I just want to try to drink on the weekends if that, when I will not be working the next day.
Yesterday, I went to Camp Ernst lake and sat at the picnic table in the sun and wrote a two page letter to my mother. I wrote about how much her words have hurt me lately and how I know that deep down in my heart that God is not going to turn me away b/c I am bisexual. If God can forgive those who rape and kill people and hurt little kids, then I really dont think the fact that I have a girlfriend is a reason for denying me passage into heaven. I'm not sure yet if I should give it to her???
I don't know what is wrong with Nichole lately, I guess you could say we are kind of on the rocks.... :(
I talked to Dave last night for a little while, that was rather enjoyable. I've noticed lately that he is one person that I can really open up to, sucks you moved Dooobie! I do miss ya! I used to be able to have in depth conversations with Stef but since she has moved it has been hard for us to keep in touch, Stef if you read this, could you leave your number, I lost it when I got my new phone???
Since about the time I moved into my first apt with Kristen, I develped a habt of drinking; alot!! I started drinkin damn near everyday. I have come to a point where I realized that I need to stop drinking so much and do things that are more productive. Today will be the 5th day I have not drank anything. I am not saying that I am never going to drink again, I just want to try to drink on the weekends if that, when I will not be working the next day.
Yesterday, I went to Camp Ernst lake and sat at the picnic table in the sun and wrote a two page letter to my mother. I wrote about how much her words have hurt me lately and how I know that deep down in my heart that God is not going to turn me away b/c I am bisexual. If God can forgive those who rape and kill people and hurt little kids, then I really dont think the fact that I have a girlfriend is a reason for denying me passage into heaven. I'm not sure yet if I should give it to her???
I don't know what is wrong with Nichole lately, I guess you could say we are kind of on the rocks.... :(