Breaking Me With Emotions...
I hate having emotions...I mean I love to love...But I hate to feel, All I feel is pain,lonely ness, no matter what happens every thing reminds me of how shitty my life has been. I want out, I want an escape. I dont want to die cuz Ive almost done that and learned life is worth living. I just want some thing, some one, some how to escape all this pain. I want love, happiness, joy, to smile. Not to feel like this 95% of the time. Im not one to feel like this, Im better, stronger...yet It breaks me. Come on I was watching One Tree Hill and started to cry, cuz of T.V.? wtf is wrong with me. I feel like my life is a T.V. show, like its one of those T.V. shows that is so a drama and is killing me.Where is all the happiness I use to feel? Cuz Im ready to take it back. If it would just show its self. Just let me know it was their. Never let your self feel this way. Run from the truth, the pain, the agony of life. Or feel the way I do...lonely 4 evr