my life is boring
I literally feel like I haven't got a brain, or like it's lost somewhere. I might have thoughts, and if I'm talking to people they might come out, and if I'm pressed to write a paper, I might be able to sound intelligent, but when it comes to, like, actually having things to say, most of the time nowadays, when I'm quiet, it's because I literally have nothing to say.
And this is problematic because: a) I never update any of my blogs ; b) I have three pretty substantial papers due in the near future (specifically, my American Sexualities final, my writing section for Honors, and an 8-pg necessarily depressing essay in German).
What does bother me, however, is that I seem to be the only one who cares that we are overbudget in our co-op. Like, everyone's like "Oh, Jen. It's only, like, $10 when you divvy it up between all the members." But, okay, so we wonder why OSCA is an extremely privileged organisation? It's because these stupid kids would rather have goat cheese and bacon and miss crews and have someone else do the cleaning for them than stay under budget. Like, okay, so I can afford to pay OSCA $10 but how spoiled are we that that's suddenly nonchalantly okay? And maybe it just pisses me off because I don't eat goat cheese and bacon, but--okay!
Take today for example. I was one minute late for lunch, and all I got to eat was some rice, a piece of tofu, and an apple. Not only did the cooks not reserve the tofu for the vegans/non-egg-consumers (like myself), when confronted about the fact that there was not enough food at all, they were like "The dry foods room is in a Great Famine." NOT TRUE. We have a massive amount of beans. And so maybe beans aren't as gourmet as ~*egg muffin things*~, ~*honey baked tofu*~, ~*chard wok shit*~, ~*carmelised apples*~, and whatever that rice saucey stuff was, but the point is that beans are cheap, healthy, and GO A LOT FURTHER than you'd expect. I don't even like beans. But at this point in the year, being $1000 something over budget means WE EAT FUCKING BEANS EVERY DAY. There has to be consequences for the hedonism that prompted us to enjoy ~*smoked mozzarella*~ and ~*sausage pizza*~ all semester. And I'd rather have that consequence be that we eat more fucking beans, than me owing OSCA after a semester for the FIRST TIME IN ALL FOUR YEARS I'VE BEEN HERE.
And then today, in discussion, some kid was like "Lol, it's okay when co-ops go to shit during finals because I go to shit during finals and it's funny." And I was like "UM NO." It is not okay to endorse skipping crews and cooking shifts in a discussion when this is the first official real close-down for 79% of the membership. If we end up being service-mastered, I will flip a shit.
GOD I SHOULD HAVE STAYED IN OLD B.
And this is problematic because: a) I never update any of my blogs ; b) I have three pretty substantial papers due in the near future (specifically, my American Sexualities final, my writing section for Honors, and an 8-pg necessarily depressing essay in German).
What does bother me, however, is that I seem to be the only one who cares that we are overbudget in our co-op. Like, everyone's like "Oh, Jen. It's only, like, $10 when you divvy it up between all the members." But, okay, so we wonder why OSCA is an extremely privileged organisation? It's because these stupid kids would rather have goat cheese and bacon and miss crews and have someone else do the cleaning for them than stay under budget. Like, okay, so I can afford to pay OSCA $10 but how spoiled are we that that's suddenly nonchalantly okay? And maybe it just pisses me off because I don't eat goat cheese and bacon, but--okay!
Take today for example. I was one minute late for lunch, and all I got to eat was some rice, a piece of tofu, and an apple. Not only did the cooks not reserve the tofu for the vegans/non-egg-consumers (like myself), when confronted about the fact that there was not enough food at all, they were like "The dry foods room is in a Great Famine." NOT TRUE. We have a massive amount of beans. And so maybe beans aren't as gourmet as ~*egg muffin things*~, ~*honey baked tofu*~, ~*chard wok shit*~, ~*carmelised apples*~, and whatever that rice saucey stuff was, but the point is that beans are cheap, healthy, and GO A LOT FURTHER than you'd expect. I don't even like beans. But at this point in the year, being $1000 something over budget means WE EAT FUCKING BEANS EVERY DAY. There has to be consequences for the hedonism that prompted us to enjoy ~*smoked mozzarella*~ and ~*sausage pizza*~ all semester. And I'd rather have that consequence be that we eat more fucking beans, than me owing OSCA after a semester for the FIRST TIME IN ALL FOUR YEARS I'VE BEEN HERE.
And then today, in discussion, some kid was like "Lol, it's okay when co-ops go to shit during finals because I go to shit during finals and it's funny." And I was like "UM NO." It is not okay to endorse skipping crews and cooking shifts in a discussion when this is the first official real close-down for 79% of the membership. If we end up being service-mastered, I will flip a shit.
GOD I SHOULD HAVE STAYED IN OLD B.