[notes] tl;dr on Blank Canvas
The tl;dr Notes on Blank Canvas [akame].
This was supposed to be something like a sequel to A Brilliantly Languid Affair, but it didn't work out that way at all. That drabble hints at something hopeful and nice and happy, but that isn't how the fic turned out, is it?
I think we can all agree that Kame is a little romantic. I think we can all agree that Jin is a little bit more realistic. I think we can all agree that both of them are still sophomoric and that their fight is stupid.
I could say that Jin was the voice of reason here, but that's not necessarily true. Kame starts the scene at the restaurant by being lost within himself, by thinking about things and not paying to the Jin right in front of him. Jin thinks that something is wrong (still paranoid from their earlier phone conversation) and asks Kame about it.
Kame doesn't want to talk about it and it is revealed that Kame never wants to talk about it, thus causing tension.
But the very basis of it, the fact that Kame is a little out of it, is stupid.
The fact that things break again because of something like that is stupid.
And there is parallelism, I suppose, between their first kiss and what may as well be their last kiss, but it's not exact. I did want to portray that Jin had grown a little bit while Kame really hadn't. So Jin is a better driver, Jin is a little more forceful in his kisses. Jin is trying to stop smoking and Kame is starting again.
And at the end, Kame is too stubborn to fix himself. He's too stubborn to realize his weaknesses (opening up) and too stubborn to reveal things to someone who he knows, for a fact, cares about him.
And thus, it is a tragedy (Or maybe not--I didn't do so well on that unit in English). D:
Any questions? I probably missed a lot of things I wanted to talk about because I typed this after I wrote it and my head hurts~~