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ok things r hell yessness right now...buuuut of course that little voice in my head is back telling me somethings gunna go wrong whether it be with me and Link or somewhere outside...i hate when i get like this i get so emotionaly ripped up that i kinda shut down and feel nothing....and no amount of music can fix it like it usually does when i feel like shit....well mabye i should clearify whats been going through my head....first how will my grandperants react...i mean me of all people heving a bf AND A BLACK 1 at that...yeah gramps and me would have a hay day with that *sigh* then things about mom might come up...like them thinking ill get engulfed in it and fale this year or they might think im just in it for a fuck...either way they would be watching me like a hawk and i would never get to be that close with him atleast till im 18.....damn age limits WHO SAYS 18 MEANS UR AN ADULT!!!!!!???.....anyway then theres my mom im not saying she'll interfer with us but something might happend to fuck me up again....im sure i can deal with anything she throws at me....but still.....she has way of supriseing me.....dammit iv never been good with happy situations.....i love this...but is it too much......i prob need to be hit for questioning things when i wanted them so bad.....but i love feeling like this but i hate feeling dependant....i feel like somethings wrong.....