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I have been in the weirdest state of mind lately. I never really feel like doing anything (social) anymore and Ive been wildly apathetic towards everything, and I don't know why.
My summer class has been moving very fast. Not that I didn't expect it to.. but it sucks. We have to write a paper a week. For this most recent one we were only given 3 days. We have a quiz just about every day or every other day. That's bullshit. And it's not even an interesting class, really. But there's this black girl that sits infront of me and I honestly think she is on crack.
All I've been doing lately is going to class, going to work, or going to the gym. I would go to the pool but the weather hasn't been that great.
Things with Justin have been going okay. Nothing new...just the same ol' same ol'. I feel bad cause lately I haven't made much of an effort to hang out...or call... or like, act interested. Not that I'm not interested. I don't know what's wrong with me.
The DMB concert is a week from today and I'm pretty excited. It better not rain or I will be livid.
So, I pretty much never cry...and the other day I was driving home from class listening to some song that gave me a weird...like, melancholy feeling....and as I was driving and passing all the pretty fields and the farms and the sky was so pretty and I passed all these places that I realized I'm gonna miss when I leave and I actually started tearing up. I think it's finally starting to hit me that my time left here is starting to wind down. Even though I'll only be gone for a year and I'll probably have a blast while I'm over there, I just know I'll miss this place at some point...and when I get back, things will be different. This whole area of Charlotte is going to be so different and unfamiliar maybe I'll lose touch with people...who knows. But it's fucking sad.
I got a fortune cookie the other day...first fortune cookie I've gotten since I was in Michigan...and it read:
Add to your understanding of foreign art and culture.
Weird?
I taped it up on the frame of my computer monitor because I'm gay.
What sucks is the fact that I have absolutely NO idea what to expect, or what all I will experience or see while I'm there....and at the same time it's kind of cool to think about. I have absolutely NO idea what kind of crazy shit I'm gonna get into.... And atleast Coldplay will be playing in Morecambe Bay while I'm over there. And Megan will be coming to visit in the Spring too.
Hmmm... well maybe I shouldstop this rambling and get back to finishing my presentation and final paper draft that are both due tomorrow.