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So grandpa passed away on the 21st. I was at work and wasnt informed about it until about 11 at night. Eric said my dad got the phone call and was pretty okay about it, then he said "Im gonna go upstairs for a while..." Eric went up to see if he was ok, when he peeked in his room he was sitting on the edge of the bed with his head down in his hands. I think what makes me the saddest is thinking about how heartbroken my grandma is and how alone she is gonna be now without him, and how upset my dad is about it all. My dad had a pretty close relationship with his parents. Im upset about not being able to see my grandpa anymore and that I havent gotten to see him or hug him or talk to him face to face in a long time. But the fact that he was in so much pain the past month or so...it sounds kind of fucked up but I think Im more relieved that he died now, I guess cause I would rather have him not suffer. I remember the last thing I said to him when I talked to him over the phone about 2 weeks ago....he was in the hospital and wasnt feeling well at all, I was like "Hey papap, we love you and we're praying for you, and we're gonna come see you as soon as we can." Since he was so sick and tired, he didnt say a whole lot, but all he said after that was "Okay, well I'll be waiting..." And we never made it up there to see him. I hope hes not mad or sad at us because we didnt come. I dont want him to think that we dont care about him. It sucks that I live so far away from my favorite grandparents. I wish I could have spent a lot more time with the two of them. I regret not calling them or sending them letters. Im probably a really bad granddaughter. We are their only grand children and we hardly even keep in touch since we're so busy. I feel so bad.
I was talking to Jon on AIM after I found out. I havent talked to him in a while. He signed off and then called me and we ended up talking till about 3 in the morning. I really miss him :-\ He always knows what to say to make me feel better.
I havent really done a whole lot the past few days with my friends. Ive been trying to stay focused on getting these final projects done, plus Ive been working and I've been tired. And after finding out about my grandpa I just havent been in the mood to do much. Michael and I went to see Silent Hill last night, just the two of us. The movie was terrible, but Michael and I never spend any time together anymore so it was an okay night.
We're flying in to Pittsburgh Monday night and the funeral is Wednesday. I'm gonna leave Wednesday night and get Justin to pick me up at the airport, and the rest of the fam is gonna come back Thursday or Friday. I just cant afford to miss any more classes with finals coming up. I know that sounds bad, like im choosing school over my grandpa but Im not.
Anyway, im going to try and finish homework before I have to go to work.
I was talking to Jon on AIM after I found out. I havent talked to him in a while. He signed off and then called me and we ended up talking till about 3 in the morning. I really miss him :-\ He always knows what to say to make me feel better.
I havent really done a whole lot the past few days with my friends. Ive been trying to stay focused on getting these final projects done, plus Ive been working and I've been tired. And after finding out about my grandpa I just havent been in the mood to do much. Michael and I went to see Silent Hill last night, just the two of us. The movie was terrible, but Michael and I never spend any time together anymore so it was an okay night.
We're flying in to Pittsburgh Monday night and the funeral is Wednesday. I'm gonna leave Wednesday night and get Justin to pick me up at the airport, and the rest of the fam is gonna come back Thursday or Friday. I just cant afford to miss any more classes with finals coming up. I know that sounds bad, like im choosing school over my grandpa but Im not.
Anyway, im going to try and finish homework before I have to go to work.