The Outfield- Your Love = Spring Break theme song, haha
So granpa's tumor is inoperable and he'll probably only live for 6 more months at the latest. Thats really depressing. I was gonna go up to visit with my dad but he said no, and that I should go to the beach like I planned. So I did, and I had fun...at first I felt heartless but then I thought about how my granpa is old, he's lived a wonderful life, and everyone dies at some point... even though its sad to think about him dying and not being able to see him anymore, I really can't let it bring me down too much. We're taking a trip up next weekend or the weekend after to visit. I can already tell its gonna be an emotional one knowing my grandma. I feel really sad for her :-(
Moving on to a less depressing subject..... here are Spring Break pictures. http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/deesulsoss/my_photos
It was a great trip, we met the most awesome group of guys from Brevard. We spent the whole trip with them and it wouldnt have been nearly as fun if we hadn't met them, and I had a lot of great times with the girls too. We're supposed to be taking a trip to visit the guys in a few weekends to go camping and hang out and get drunk and all that fun stuff. We freakin love them, they're so much fun :-)
I've gone on 3 roadtrips in the past 2 weekends, which required me to spend money on gas, food, alcohol, pot, snowboard rentals and lift tickets, and other miscellaneous things, and within those past 2 weekends I managed to spend somewhere around $400. I had to take work off to go on all of these trips (I only work on the weekends) which means I wont get paid again until somewhere around the end of March. I have about $60 left to last me to my next paycheck, and that's probably going to all end up in my gas tank and going towards other necessities. I'll probably end up dipping into the savings account which I reaaalllly don't want to do, cause those are my foundation savings for England. Guuuhhh I hate being broke!!!
And I've also decided that Im not going to pursue the relationship I was about to get into, simply because Im moving to another country not too long from now, and I refuse to try and make a long distance relationship work. It just...won't. I feel bad, because Justin, like, really wants to date. And he's a really good guy. We have a lot in common and we have the same sense of humor, we're always keeping eachother laughing. But I'm really afraid to get attached when I know Im going to be leaving. Plus, I think I've learned my lesson from my last relationship about letting myself get attached. I have it in my head now that If I let my gaurd down and get attached to a guy, they're going to end up leaving me and I'll be the one to get hurt. I hate myself for having the attitude I do towards guys and relationships in general since I've been screwed over so many times, but I can't fucking help it.
But anyway, I've been sick ever since we've gotten home from the beach with a bad cough, stuffiness, achiness, the works... I passed the fuck out early last night and woke up kind of late, then layed in bed pretty much all day in my pajamas watching cartoons and other garbage TV shows. Michael bought me Bojangles too....He's been really nice to me lately and I'm curious as to why... Its odd. I miss when he and I had a really close relationship, like when we would hang out in eachothers rooms and talk and laugh till 3 AM and just act retarded, and had inside jokes and kept eachother's secrets from our parents, and we had mutual friends and would go to the same parties, and we just looked out for eachother. Those were the days, before we grew up and he decided he wanted to ruin his life. I really miss that shit, though.
Sooo yeah, Im in desperate need of a shower, and after I get ready Im meeting up with Jeanette and we'll probably end up hanging out at Tyler's apartment with Kyle and whoever else for the night unless something better is going on, so I'm out for now PEACE
Moving on to a less depressing subject..... here are Spring Break pictures. http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/deesulsoss/my_photos
It was a great trip, we met the most awesome group of guys from Brevard. We spent the whole trip with them and it wouldnt have been nearly as fun if we hadn't met them, and I had a lot of great times with the girls too. We're supposed to be taking a trip to visit the guys in a few weekends to go camping and hang out and get drunk and all that fun stuff. We freakin love them, they're so much fun :-)
I've gone on 3 roadtrips in the past 2 weekends, which required me to spend money on gas, food, alcohol, pot, snowboard rentals and lift tickets, and other miscellaneous things, and within those past 2 weekends I managed to spend somewhere around $400. I had to take work off to go on all of these trips (I only work on the weekends) which means I wont get paid again until somewhere around the end of March. I have about $60 left to last me to my next paycheck, and that's probably going to all end up in my gas tank and going towards other necessities. I'll probably end up dipping into the savings account which I reaaalllly don't want to do, cause those are my foundation savings for England. Guuuhhh I hate being broke!!!
And I've also decided that Im not going to pursue the relationship I was about to get into, simply because Im moving to another country not too long from now, and I refuse to try and make a long distance relationship work. It just...won't. I feel bad, because Justin, like, really wants to date. And he's a really good guy. We have a lot in common and we have the same sense of humor, we're always keeping eachother laughing. But I'm really afraid to get attached when I know Im going to be leaving. Plus, I think I've learned my lesson from my last relationship about letting myself get attached. I have it in my head now that If I let my gaurd down and get attached to a guy, they're going to end up leaving me and I'll be the one to get hurt. I hate myself for having the attitude I do towards guys and relationships in general since I've been screwed over so many times, but I can't fucking help it.
But anyway, I've been sick ever since we've gotten home from the beach with a bad cough, stuffiness, achiness, the works... I passed the fuck out early last night and woke up kind of late, then layed in bed pretty much all day in my pajamas watching cartoons and other garbage TV shows. Michael bought me Bojangles too....He's been really nice to me lately and I'm curious as to why... Its odd. I miss when he and I had a really close relationship, like when we would hang out in eachothers rooms and talk and laugh till 3 AM and just act retarded, and had inside jokes and kept eachother's secrets from our parents, and we had mutual friends and would go to the same parties, and we just looked out for eachother. Those were the days, before we grew up and he decided he wanted to ruin his life. I really miss that shit, though.
Sooo yeah, Im in desperate need of a shower, and after I get ready Im meeting up with Jeanette and we'll probably end up hanging out at Tyler's apartment with Kyle and whoever else for the night unless something better is going on, so I'm out for now PEACE