insecurities
Insecurities make up most of my thoughts therefore affecting my dreams. Last night I dreamed about my boyfriend. He had another girl on his lap and was flirting greatly with 6 other girls. I remember going to him and the girl left and I just sat beside him and thought why don't I say something or sit on his lap then i woke up. My dream reflects my insecurity about my boyfriend and how I don't say the things i want to say or how I want to say them, and how I'm insecure about how I look and act. I always think at night how i said somethings and could have said them differently. I beat myself up over how there is so much i want to ask or say to my boyfriend but I don't because I dont want to sound stupid. I once asked him what he expected from me and he told me to support him and tell him that everything would be ok. I feel like i don't support him enough and everything I do say to him comes out cynically and sarcastic when i really want to say sweet, loving, caring things and I don't know how he can stand it or how he's even my boyfriend. Another insecurity is how i hate the way I look and it affects what I do w/myself. I say some of the stupidest things and do even worse actions. so yea thats just some of my thoughts on some of my insecurities right now.